I’m going to be putting a serious focus on self-care. I know that sounds weird because I talk about self-care all the time as it is. I guess what I mean is that I’m going to put a renewed focus on self-care. Like, recommit to self-care.
Here’s the deal. I mentioned that I’m going through a rough time and rather than allow that to open the door to my depression gaining a foothold, I’m choosing to be proactive instead. I feel like I’m already doing great. I’m at the gym five days a week and it would be more but they’re closed on the weekends for some weird reason. It feels so good to be back at it and I actually look forward to spending that 90 minutes bettering myself each day.
That’s really positive and it’s helping me in so many ways, both emotionally and physically. There is always room for improvement and I’m always open to new ways of bettering myself.
There are few things that I feel I need to work on. One of those tings is quality sleep. My sleep isn’t always restful and it definitely hasn’t been lately. I’m been stressed out and that seems to contribute to my occasional restless leg at night. It’s been bad the last few nights and the only thing I know to do is reduce stress, improve my ability to cope with said stress, force myself to go to bed at a regular time each night, and keep positive, even when it’s difficult. There’s lots of pieces to this but focusing on building a routine that I can stick to is a big step in the right direction.
Something else I want to improve is maintaining proper hydration. I’ve historically struggled with this but I’m doing better. I got myself a new water bottle to make this a bit more manageable. I upgraded my old 24oz to this new 64oz behemoth. All I have to do is drink two of these a day and I’m in pretty good shape. Dehydration can literally cause all kinds of problems, as well as make everything worse, so it makes sense to focus on this.
One of the other things I want to work on is better managing my anxiety. There aren’t too many things that really trigger a great deal of anxiety but it happens, and I hate it. Working out, hydration, and better sleep are all things that provide me with resources to cope with life. That said, historically, writing has been my saving grace. Until I started this blog, I hated writing, and wanted nothing to do with it. What I’ve discovered is that writing brings me a sense of peace. Sometimes I write just for myself and it never gets published. While that still helps, the absolute best feeling is finding the words to express myself, writing them down, and sending them away (publishing them).
There’s something about sending my thoughts out into the Universe that helps me to let go of whatever I’m carrying. I’ve not found a way to replicate that process any other way, and I’ve tried. I’ve been having a difficult time in regards to writing lately. Sometimes it’s about trying to find a better balance between sharing and maintaining a level of privacy. Other times I’m weighed down by life to an extent that trying to put words to what I’m feeling is so incredibly overwhelming that I just don’t.
It’s a double edged sword. Pushing myself to write under those circumstances isn’t always the best idea. I get frustrated because I can’t find a way to convey what I’m experiencing. At the same time, writing is literally one of the only things that will help me find a path forward.
I want to really put a focus on writing every single day. I need to set the time aside to write and see it through to completion. I’ve gotten into the habit of starting something and walking away. I need to write at least once a day, even if it’s something simple. I think this will be a great addition to my toolbox of resources that help me combat anxiety. Actually, sometimes I write while I’m on the treadmill. I haven’t mastered that yet but I keep working on it every time I go. Someday I’ll be able to multitask like a boss.
I guess the whole point is this. I recognize that I may have some darker days ahead of me and that’s okay. Rather than become consumed by that darkness, I want to bring as much light into my life as I can. I feel like that will be a positive thing.
For the moment, I’m going to focus on getting some sleep. I have a busy day ahead of me. There’s a meeting in the morning and some office work that needs done as well. I have phone calls that need made and appointments to get on the calender. Of course, I also need to workout. We’re having a movie night and I have plans at some point this weekend. I’m not sure when but I thing it’s Sunday. I have to double check.
Anyway, please take care of yourself and remember that you have to be selfish before you can be selfless.