I took a couple months off from therapy but decided to go back today. Therapy is an amazing thing that I didn’t always embrace for myself. Over the past few years, however, I’ve been hitting therapy pretty hard and it’s paid off. I’ve always believed in therapy but never made the time for myself. I was always worrying about everyone else in the house and wasn’t making time for me.
My therapist moved out of state and we continued sessions remotely. Towards the end of the summer, there was a bunch of scheduling conflicts and after the first few, I sorta forgot about it.
Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit of depression creeping in and I decided that it was best to re-engage with my therapist.
I have an amazing support system in my everyday life. I’m very lucky to have people who love and support me. Having that is truly a blessing and I’m thankful for that. Even the best at home (family/friend/spouse/partner) system, doesn’t discount the need for therapy. If anything, they can have a synergistic impact and that’s not a bad thing.
Anyway, I had my first session back today. It felt really good and it definitely helped. All things considered, I’m doing well. I’m just having a harder time focusing on all the progress I’ve made, especially with work. I tend to focus more on what still needs done or done better and that’s a hallmark sign that depression is creeping in. I’m very cognizant of that so I can work myself through it, but it’s exhausting after awhile.
Therapy helps me build the resources I need to tip the scales back in my favor. I think it’s probably the season change and everything COVID that’s kinda knocked me down a bit. The other obvious thing is that it’s fucking hard to be a single parent. I have so much respect for all the single parents who’ve been in the trenches every single day. Trying to balance work, kids, selfcare, relationships, and everyday life is not easy.
I have so many positive things going for me and I’m truly happy with my life. Depression can cloud things over a little bit and make the good stuff harder to see. Thankfully, there’s plenty of good stuff for me to refocus on.
For what it’s worth, going to therapy is not a weakness. I’m not ashamed of it and I honestly wish I had prioritized my mental health long before I actually did. If you find yourself in a place where you’re thinking about trying therapy, I encourage you to take the plunge. At least give it a try. You may find it to be the best selfcare decision you’ve ever made for yourself. ☺