Feeling pretty good about my parenting today

Emmett and Gavin are at their Mom's for the weekend. We've been dealing with a few obstacles in regards to visits and I wasn't sure they would want to go or not. I'm really glad that we've navigated some of these things and they were comfortable moving forward. Sometimes navigating these things can be very challenging but it's all part of life. Well, it's all part of divorced life anyway. Elliott on the other hand is not in the same place as his brothers so he stayed home, and that's okay. I had quite a bit of work that needed to get done and some invoicing as well. I'd say I managed to complete about 70% of what I needed to get done. I feel pretty good about that. Feeling…

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Here’s an update, it’s been a minute

It's been a minute since I've been here. Life is taking me in multiple directions and to be completely honest, I've been struggling. So much has happened over the last few weeks. There's been joy, heartache, victories, COVID, setbacks, and even major milestones. Objectively speaking, life in my house of autism is going well. We had our first battle with COVID since the pandemic began. Elliott, Emmett, and I all experienced mild, allergy-like symptoms for a week or so. Elliott is the only one to actually tested positive for COVID, and Gavin was the only one who didn't appear to be affected. Thankfully, we're all out of quarantine. Elliott missed the last two weeks of the school year because he kept testing positive but everything worked out, and most importantly,…

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Today’s going to be a good day

The last couple of days have been rough for me. I experience with emotions is very intense. That's not necessarily a bad thing but it can be overwhelming. I've always been that way but as I've aged, it's become easier to manage. Not perfect mind you, but manageable. When I get like this, I can start drowning in what feels like a tsunami of feelings, fear, and pervasive thinking. I always thought that was normal but as I'm learning more about myself, I'm understanding it's very much an ADHD thing. It's so interesting to step back and look at things because I'm able to recognize patterns in my behavior that make much more sense now. Once I recognize the problem, I can work on addressing it. The hardest part for…

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I’m 43 years old, and finished my first round of #ADHD testing

The other day, I received a phone call from my psychologist. There had been a cancelation and he was hoping I would come in a week early to get started on my ADHD evaluation. I had to clear my afternoon schedule but I jumped at the opportunity to get this process started. I've been waiting for a couple of months to undergo this evaluation and hopefully, get the help I need to better manage my symptoms. I arrived at the office about an hour or so after hanging up the phone and nervously waited in the lobby. Eventually I heard my name and made my way into this small room off to the side. It was cluttered with books, papers, and boxes. It reminded me of my speech therapists office…

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I’m just gonna leave this here

I'm exhausted and I'm leaving super early so I can get home to my loved ones. I'll be sharing all about my trip after I settle back in and catch my breath. I just wanted give you some idea of how today went. I can't wait for this episode to come out. Be sure to follow me on Instagram because there's a bunch of video from the trip that you can only see there.  I'm just gonna leave this here..

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I can get really frustrated with myself

I've got a jam packed week ahead of me and it's all pretty exciting stuff. I have a few interviews this week and will close them all off with Kate Swenson from Finding Cooper's Voice. She's going to be on the pod to talk about her new book Forever Boy. I'm looking forward to that. There's a lot of prep going into this upcoming trip and my brain has been working overtime. I was gently reminded today that I can sometimes overcomplicate things. I'm following some really good advice and making a list of everything that needs to get done before I go. I can finally get it out of my head and into paper. I made a list tonight and I'm going to refine it as I go but…

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Feeling Grateful

I'm physically and emotionally getting ready for my big trip and I realized a few things. I'm going to be gone for five days and I've never been away from my kids for that long. I've never gone on a solo trip before and I've never been alone for more than a day or two. I was talking through this the other night and I recieved some really good advice. I understand the advice in my head but I'm not sure I can explain it well. Basically, the advice had to do with me feeling lonely while I'm gone. Honestly, that's something I've been a bit worried about. Rather than running from that feeling or trying to push it away, instead, I should lean into it. The idea is to…

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