We're going to be doing things a little differently this year than in previous years. Rather than stay at home for most of the holiday, and try to keep things as calm as possible, we're going to be spending more time with family. The past few years, we've been really trying to limit the excitement, in order to help ensure we physically and emotionally survived the holiday. lol This year we will be going to a larger Christmas party on Lizze's side of the family on the 23rd. Christmas Eve will be spent with Lizze's parents and Christmas Day will be spent with my family. The kids will have a blast with their cousins but like I've said before, it will come at a price. At the very least, the…

There's a great deal of stress being felt by Lizze and I but I don't think it's any one thing in particular. The overall amount of shit going on in general is likely the biggest contributing factor. We're pretty much ready for Christmas in regards to shopping but there's way more to Christmas then shopping. Based on how out of control the boys are right now, I can only see things getting worse as we draw closer and closer to the big day. In my last post, I mentioned how the boys were getting along pretty well but that apparently has run its course. Now they're fighting like brothers again and it's upping the level of tension in this house.

I'm officially on day four of withdrawaling from Paxil and so far, so good. I've been slowly tapering down by rotating between my regular dose and half of my regular dose. As of now, I'm not having any problems but honestly, I'm not noticing anything because it will take about four and a half to five days for my levels to begin to drop. It's not going to be anything drastic but it will slowly begin lowering in time and my brain will begin adjusting to not having as much Paxil in my system. I'm still feeling extremely positive about this decision and every day is a step in the right direction.