It was a fun night and by fun I mean awful. Neither Elliott or Emmett ever fell asleep last night. Emmett was in a really weird place and I'm not sure what's going on with him. All of a sudden, he's terrifed of the closet in his room but can't explain why. Unfortunately, there doesn't appear to be anything we can do to comfort him. He's asked us to remove the closet door and hang drywall over the opening so it's just a wall when we're done. That's simply not an option. Even if we played along and made the closet disappear behind a wall, he'd still know it was there. He's just in a weird place right now and I'm hoping we can help him work through this. As…

Our plans have had to be adjusted for this weekend because I'm not doing so well. As of now, I will be staying behind while the boys and Lizze head to the family Christmas party. The boys will be heading to Lizze's parents to spend the day and when it's time for the party, they will pick Lizze up on the way. I feel terrible not going but honestly, I feel even more terrible simply existing at the moment. My hope is that I'll feel well enough to spend Christmas Eve with my in-laws and if I'm really lucky, I'll be okay to see my side of the family on Christmas day. If nothing else, perhaps we can have a quiet, at home Christmas this year.

We're going to be doing things a little differently this year than in previous years. Rather than stay at home for most of the holiday, and try to keep things as calm as possible, we're going to be spending more time with family. The past few years, we've been really trying to limit the excitement, in order to help ensure we physically and emotionally survived the holiday. lol This year we will be going to a larger Christmas party on Lizze's side of the family on the 23rd. Christmas Eve will be spent with Lizze's parents and Christmas Day will be spent with my family. The kids will have a blast with their cousins but like I've said before, it will come at a price. At the very least, the…