Today didn't go quite as we had planned, but that's okay. We were able to take care of my parent's dog, but we were unable to make it to the park. The garden center was closed for what looked like a wedding reception or something.  The boys were disappointed but we managed to redirect their attention to dinner. Lizze went to bed for a few hours, and I hung out with the boys. They ended up watching a really old Ben 10 movie. It was live action, and a little weird, but the kids liked it.  Around 8 PM, Lizze put the boys to bed and we watched some TV for a little bit.  I'm feeling somewhat stressed out tonight, and I think I want to climb into bed early.…

The boys are struggling a bit today. Their routine has been thrown off, and they don't like it. Emmett especially, is on edge. Elliott is hyper, and Gavin's been spending time fighting bad guys with his team of super heros (also known as Schizophrenic hallucinations).  Lizze is not having a good day, but I'm doing okay myself. Truthfully, I'm frustrated because we're in the position we're in. At the same time, I'm grateful that it's only the internet, and not a major utility. This could always be worse.  We have a roof over our head, food in the kitchen, water, natural gas, electricity, and everyone is as healthy as can be expected. These are all things to be grateful for. It's easy to lose sight of these things, when you're…

My parents are out of town today, and we are going over to take care of their dog. While we're there, I'll be able to get some work done, and the boys will be able to play their tablets for a bit.  The idea here is to let the afternoon go on long enough that the sun isn't as strong, and then we will go to the park.  When we're done, I want to try and have a nice, quiet afternoon. 

It's been a tough day thus far. The boys are really stressed out over the loss of internet. The Internet is a requirement for much of their daily routine.  Emmett and Gavin both live on YouTube, while Elliott streams his music.  Apparently, I never set our Xbox as the home Xbox, so games can be played offline. All of our games are digital downloads, so that was a necessary step, and I can't fix it without the internet.  On the positive side, the boys have decided they want to clean their room, so they can bring the ferrets upstairs to play with. Hopefully, this motivation lasts until they've made progress in their room. ☺ 

We're off to good start today. Emmett and I have been hanging out since about 5 AM. I don't know why he was up so early, but I think it was something to do with a bad dream. It's gonna be a hot day, and I'm so thankful that we were able to get the air fixed. ☺ 

Depression is something I've been living with for over half my life. Depression is war, and many battles have been fought. I've lost some of those battles, but there are also quite a few that I've won.  At this moment in time, there's a lot going on in my life and I can find myself feeling scattered.  To be completely candid, I suspect part of the reason I'm tired all the time, has to do Depression. It's not like I don't have a million other reasons to be tired as well. Depression isn't making it any easier.  I'm taking my meds, and I see my doctor in August for a check up.  Unfortunately, my life produces conditions, that are absolutely perfect for fostering Depression. It has nothing to with the…

I spoke with Spectrum, formally known as Time Warner Cable. I tried to make payment arrangements because I wasn't able to pay the bill by today's date. Not that I was ever a fan of Time Warner Cable, but Spectrum is even worse. I'm only one payment behind, and that's only $80. I know we still owe the money, and the payment is late, but Time Warner would have worked with us.  Turns out they no longer make payment arrangements as of January 24th of this year. That's roughly when they began transitioning into Spectrum.  If only their internet connection wasn't so amazing and reasonably priced, I'd go somewhere else.  Our connection will probably be shut off at some point before we wake up in the morning.  We'll know the moment…