I've not been around much the last few days, and I wanted to drop a quick line and let you know everything is okay.
What's happening right now is that I'm re-evaluating my priorities, and focusing on personal growth. I've been distracted, overwhelmed, and easily frustrated. That can make me a less than stellar husband and father.
You may be interested to learn that I'm going to seek out a dedicated therapist for myself. I haven't had one in a while. Lizze has been asking me to do this for a while, and I haven't because I thought I was doing okay. The truth is, I'm not doing nearly as well as I thought I was, and it impacts Lizze and the boys in a negative way.
I've been carrying a great deal of baggage from the 30 years of my life, and it impacts me more than I realized.
I've eluded to some of this baggage over the years but never come out and just openly talked about it. There are some things I'm not ready to talk about in-depth and some things that I just don't think most of the world can relate to. A large portion of these things stem from my time as a fire/medic, and some are from my early childhood. Many of these things have haunted me, and aside from Lizze, I don't talk to anyone about them. I don't like thinking about them, let alone talking about them.
Anyway, I've been taking a good hard look at myself, and I need to make some changes in my personal life to be a better husband and father.
I actually feel pretty good about this journey I'm embarking on and I think everyone would benefit from putting themselves on review.
