Racing thoughts……

I came up stairs to go to bed and EJ is peacefully sleeping. In the next few hours he will most likely start screaming. I wish I knew what was wrong. I wish he could tell us.

I wonder if he will ever speak. If he does, what will his first word be? Sometimes the pain is just to much to bear. I wish the rest of the world would understand what this is like. I be happy if just the part of the world I crossed paths with understood.

I wish bill collectors would understand that things are really rough for my family at the moment and stop asking for money I don’t have to give them. I wish there was a visible sign I could wear that would show everyone that I’m barely holding it together right now so please be kind to me.

There is a movie called “powder” the kid as the power to make people feel what you are feeling. I wish I had that power sometimes. It would help other to better understand the constant emotional roller coaster that is Autism.

Right now I just wish I could stop thinking and worrying about tomorrow long enough to sleep…


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Rob Gorski

Full time, work from home single Dad to my 3 amazing boys. Oh...and creator fo this blog. :-)
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What a cute little one. All the worry and stress is like a neverending nightmare and you just wish you could wake up.Autism is truely a test ,and when you mix in the other stress factors,like bills, the house, or in my case, dealing with the public at work(i don’t try to be short with people, but i just can’t seem to concentrate on their problems, when i’m thinking about my sons autism 24-7).It never leaves your mind, its constantly there ,weighing you down,nothings any fun any more .Its nice to know that there are others who are going through it also, but how much can we all take?? God Bless you guys, i hope we can all stay strong together because our kids need us, they have no one else…….