Self Doubt: An honesty post

I’m sharing this because I think it’s important for people to understand just how bad things can get when dealing with Autism. Things are really bad now. Gavin is pushing us to the brink of insanity. All he does is talk nonstop. He has no control over it now but I’m to the point I don’t want to hear his voice. His movement issues have resurfaced once again and seem to be getting worse each day. The doc’s are cut his meds back slowly already in response. However, he was on an extremely low dose of medication. This isn’t good as it make it even more difficult to medicate him going forward.

Emmett John is becoming more aggressive towards Elliott Richard and more destructive in general. He screams all the time. He’s clawed up Lizze’s face and pulls out her hair.

Elliott Richard whines all the time. He’s stuck in the middle and gets no relief at anytime. Luckily school starts on Wednesday and that will help him. He has also become afraid of everything curtesy of Gavin’s mouth.

I literally can feel myself cracking at times and I seriously question if I have what it takes to keep going anymore.

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