Today has been just a bad day. It started out rough and ended rough. Gavin is becoming more and more of a handful. The impact he is having on Elliott is very profound. Gavin is dragging Elliott into his imaginary world. He is teaching Elliott that these things are real by his example. I don’t know how to find balance. I don’t know how to allow us all to coexist without unneeded fallout.

Things are becoming more and more difficult to handle. Lizze has given so much of herself that I think she has lost a sense of who she is. It’s a real struggle to try to be what everyone needs all the time but she has done that selflessly for so long that she has forgotten how to take care of herself. I am real proud of her because she has been doing her best to walk. I know it’s hard for her to do that.

Got to go… Gavin is moving around….