I thought I would touch base with everyone and talk about how I’m doing some far since starting Paxil.
I think it’s important that we discuss things like this so that people have a better understanding of what goes on when they hear depression. I also want to remove the taboo and stigma attached to depression.
As many of you know, I went back on Paxil, an antidepressant, a few months ago.
This was done because I was no longer able to cope with everything and I wanted and needed to get help.
So I did that by meeting with my doctor and having a very honest conversation.
We decided that Paxil was the right medication forme and so I began taking 20mg / day. The improvement seemed to happen pretty quick, although part of that improvement may have been psychological because I was taking control of my life back and I felt empowered.
That was then….and this is now.
Fast forward a few months and things started to get more complicated and overwhelming in my life, as both Gavin and my wife’s health took a turn for the worse.
I once again decided it was time to talk to my doctor again because I could feel myself starting to slip back into depressions unforgiving grasp.
We increased my dose to 40mg / day a couple of weeks back.
Since then, I have begun to feel better. It doesn’t change the reality of my life but it does help me to better cope with it.
Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle but no quite as much. I’m able to focus more on the important things but having said that, my writing has suffered.
I just can’t seem to string my thoughts together as well as I once had.
Overall, I’m doing much better and that means I can be a better husband and father. Totally worth the effort.
If you thing you are depressed, please, talk to someone and never be afraid or to proud to get help. 🙂