Confessions of a depressed special needs father

I thought I would touch base with everyone and talk about how I’m doing some far since starting Paxil.

I think it’s important that we discuss things like this so that people have a better understanding of what goes on when they hear depression. I also want to remove the taboo and stigma attached to depression.

As many of you know,  I went back on Paxil,  an antidepressant,  a few months ago. 

This was done because I was no longer able to cope with everything and I wanted and needed to get help.

So I did that by meeting with my doctor and having a very honest conversation.

We decided that Paxil was the right medication forme and so I began taking 20mg / day.  The improvement seemed to happen pretty quick,  although part of that improvement may have been psychological because I was taking control of my life back and I felt empowered.

That was then….and this is now. 

Fast forward a few months and things started to get more complicated and overwhelming in my life, as both Gavin and my wife’s health took a turn for the worse.

I once again decided it was time to talk to my doctor again because I could feel myself starting to slip back into depressions unforgiving grasp.

We increased my dose to 40mg / day a couple of weeks back.

Since then, I have begun to feel better.  It doesn’t change the reality of my life but it does help me to better cope with it.

Don’t get me wrong,  I still struggle but no quite as much.  I’m able to focus more on the important things but having said that,  my writing has suffered. 

I just can’t seem to string my thoughts together as well as I once had.

Overall,  I’m doing much better and that means I can be a better husband and father.  Totally worth the effort.

If you thing you are depressed, please,  talk to someone and never be afraid or to proud to get help.  🙂

Rob Gorski

Full time, work from home single Dad to my 3 amazing boys. Oh...and creator fo this blog. :-)
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I started Welbtrin because the strain of dealing with two special needs children was making me edgy, irritable and depressed… and it's been a God-send! It's also the first antidepressant I've tried which didn't make things WORSE, so I am thanking God and my Dr for suggesting it!


That\’s great. I\’m so glad you are doing better. For me, it never fixes anything but makes me better able to cope…

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