Please understand, I love my family more than anything in the world. I wouldn’t give them up for anything.
However, with that said, there are times, like today, where I miss my old life. I miss the freedom and relatively carefree lifestyle I once had.
Now, don’t get me wrong, if I was presented with an opportunity to go back and change things, I would still want to be where I am today. It’s just that sometimes things just become so overwhelming that long for those easier days.
Sometimes I’ll hear a song on Google Music and I’m instantly transported back in to my college days. Living with friends, going out and having fun and not having to make the types of decisions I do today. I miss my friends dearly and I haven’t spoken to most in a really long time.
I miss my days on the Fire Department. I miss the brotherhood I formed with my fellow firefighters. I miss savings lives and making an impact on the lives of others.
I even miss working as a waiter. I loved meeting new people and having regular customers. I miss going out with my friends after work.
I miss the financial stability I once had. Believe it or not, I used to have perfect credit. I could finance almost anything without much trouble.
I guess those days have become my happy place. The place I go to when things get really crazy and I need to hide away for a little bit. The problem is that once I’m there, I don’t always want to come back right away. That makes it kind of a double edged sword.
Anymore, I have a hard time simply stringing coherent thoughts together. I stress eat, I can’t get away long enough to go running and get back in shape.
Someone seems to always be screaming about something. The only peace and quiet is late evenings when I should be going to bed but I’m instead, trying to get caught up on everything in couldn’t do during the day.
It’s always the same thing, over and over again..
Again, I love my family and they are not making me unhappy. I think that I’m just in an overwhelming situation and after awhile it starts to wear me down. Especially when things just continue to become more difficult.
Anyway, I was wondering if any of you out there ever miss your old life. Maybe I’m the only one. Just thought I would ask. 🙂
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Rob every parent/adult has had this thought at one point in time (or many times) in their lives. If anyone says otherwise they're lying. I think it's a natural feeling. The more stressful/hard things get the more we want to get away. We had them in our "old" lives as well. When we had a bad day at school/work we have all had those "I wish I was graduated or didn't have to work anymore" type of thoughts. It's a natural human response to want to "run away" when things get tough. There are times I have those same thoughts as you, and I don't have near as stressful life as you guys have. I do the same thing with certain songs. I'll hear them and it will bring to mind a certain event/person/thing in my life and I just close my eyes and smile. I love my husband and daughter, but I loved the days of old too! I wouldn't trade my family for anything in the world either…actually sometimes I think that maybe if they had been there with me through certain past events/experiences it might have made it that much more enjoyable. As long as you are still able to say without a doubt that you love your family and would still want to be where you are today and with whom you're with today then there is no problem remembering and missing the past. The funny things is, there are still many more years for you to go yet and something is bound to happen that will make you miss these days right now! LOL There's nothing wrong with missing what we had/did as long as we still value/love the things we do/have today 🙂 You are not alone!! <3 you guys