I’m gonna be real honest here and tell you that Gavin is driving be plumb loco. We’re talking beat my head into the wall just to make it all stop. He doesn’t listen and I honestly don’t know if he’s even capable of listening anymore.
I realize how that sounds but I swear to God that he just never seems to learn or follow directions.
At times it seems as though he’s just not capable of following even the simplest of directions. I’m sooooo friggin tired of repeating myself. It would be easier and far less exhausting to just yell at him when he doesn’t listen. However, I don’t do that, as I feel yelling at him would only be setting a bad example and teaching him that yelling is ok.
There are times that I have to raise my voice but I rarely ever lose my patience with him.
I can’t begin to explain just how exhausting that is. I’m so tired of playing nice and giving him the benefit of the doubt. I’m frustrated because no matter how much time and energy I pour into Gavin, nothing seems to stick. The time and energy seems to be wasted on him and it’s time and energy that I could have given the other two boys. They would actually benefit from it as well.
Most of the time I can cope but today has just been extremely stressful for me and I just can’t take a whole lot from of his behaviors tonight.
Do you ever get to a point where you literally feel like your head is going to explode and you’re going to go crazy if you don’t get a break. Maybe not necessarily in that order but you get the point.
Something has got to give. Even if we decided to try inpatient care, I could take months and months to find a place that will both work and have open beds.
This is one of those situations that I’m screwed no matter what I do.
I sometimes felt bad for feeling so relieved when my son was inpatient for stints at a time. I got a break, a breather and felt okay. It's okay to want to bang your head against the wall. I feel for you. You are doing an unbelievable job – I am so glad to have found this site. You have NO idea how wonderful you are. Please remember that.
Sometimes we have to resort to making a list or having her make a list of steps/chores/directions. Then we tape it to the wall or door to her room or hang on the refrigerator.
I so feel you when it’ gets nuts hear I use the we need milk excuse just to get a breather things have been alot better sence we whent glutin free Hang in ther 🙂
Thanks everyone. Just writing this stuff down works wonders for me. 🙂
Rob I feel for you. Can Lizzie watch the boys for a short while and you take that walk you been missing? Might help you feel a little better and clear your head enough to deal with it all again.