This afternoon found me really struggling. Lizze held off on taking her meds this morning because I was supposed to be on an international conference call for work and the boys were home from school.
When she took them about lunch time, they really knocked her out.
I let her sleep until 3pm and asked her to please get up and help me. After she came down, she wasn’t able to stay awake. I was already overwhelmed and with her sleeping, I had just help with anything.
She was trying to explain to me what was going on but I just told her to go to bed and I would worry about the dishes and dinner.
She’s felt really bad and I was just too overwhelmed to sensitive to her needs.
The truth is that I sometimes have a hard time understanding what she’s going through because it’s not something I’ve ever experienced myself. For example, if I’m tired, I get up and move around. It helps to wake me up and keep going.
In Lizze’s case, it doesn’t matter. She will literally fall asleep standing up because of numerous factors including, an untreatable sleep disorder, menopause related sleep deprivation and medication.. She has no control over this and I don’t always remember this when I’m feeling overwhelmed.
I’ve apologized to her and will try to remember going forward that I need to be more patient.
Proud of this? I am not.
It’s one of those things that happens because I’m not even in the same universe as perfect. I live, learn and will hopefully do better.
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