I'm feeling a great deal of mixed emotions tonight as I write this entry. Lizze and I finally sat down today and began the application process to have Gavin get a wish granted by the Make-A-Wish Foundation.  One of Gavin's specialists have been encouraging me to do this but I hadn't until today.  During the separation, things were really hard and I was struggling to keep the boys above water. When Lizze moved back home, we began putting our lives back together and I still hadn't applied.  The truth is that I was struggling with the idea of this whole thing because for Gavin to qualify, it means that things are pretty bad for him. It forces me to face his mortality and that's something I really struggle with.  Below…