Alright, I have to be real honest here. Gavin in is driving me insane. I have no idea what’s going on with him anymore. It could be outside of his control, in which case I feel even more guilty for not having more patience.
The problem is that he’s not listening….or at least not remembering.
Several times now, today alone, I have had to stop him from telling stories to Elliott. I can’t trust that they are going to be appropriate, as typically they aren’t. See last night’s post about nightmares.
How many times must I repeat myself to him?
I don’t know if it’s teenage issues in general or if he honestly doesn’t remember the 6 conversations we have had about this in the past 24 hours. He reacts as though he knows he was wrong but seems as though it’s the first time this has happened.. If that even makes sense.
What I do know is that hearing him say “I’m sorry”, is like nails on a chalk board for me right now.
It’s not that I’m unforgiving or don’t appreciate his apologies, because I am and I do. It’s just that it’s constantly relentless and 5 minutes later he will repeat the behavior or decision he was apologizing for in the first place. It’s an endless cycle.
We have the exact same conversation, over and over and over again, throughout the course of the day.
I could honestly, and don’t think I haven’t thought of it, prerecord my responses and just touch a button on my phone to respond to him.
Anyone out there that is thinking something like, man you need more patience, is right. However,either you have never had to deal with this repetitive type behavior or you’re simply a better, much stronger person than me.
Repetitive type things, while largely benign, can erode the patience away from even the strongest among us.
I wish we could at least spice up the conversation a bit. Just switch gears every once in awhile. Maybe have an exchange in Spanish or something.
It really does ware on you and takes its toll. I’m only human and as such, can only take so much.
I have found that sharing my frustrations, helps me to better cope with the stress and maybe help someone else to realize that they are not alone.
Please feel free to leave your experiences in the comments.. Would love to hear what you have to say 😉
– Lost and Tired
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