Today is a difficult day for me. To me, the holidays are supposed to be about family. I really appreciate having my family together over the holidays.
This year however, things are a bit different.
My family will not be together for the holidays and I honestly don’t know what to do with that.
As you know, Gavin was moved out of our house about a month ago and for very good reason. I know that we did this for the right reasons and that we had no other choice. However, at moments like these, I really miss having good everyone together.
We can’t go back to the way things were, that’s obvious. Gavin simply cannot coexist in our home. It’s not good for him or us.
Having said that, I wish with all my heart that things could be different. Sadly, no amount of wishing, positive thinking or even fairy dust, will fix the void I feel.
At the same time, I grateful that things are the way they are right now.
I know that seems contradictory and it is but it’s also the reality of the situation as well.
Without Gavin, we are better able to celebrate Thanksgiving, without a major blowout or tantrum. The younger boys, will be able to visit with family that they don’t get to see very often and enjoy themselves.
That’s not to say that they won’t become overstimulated and possibly even meltdown.
The difference this time is that we don’t have to spend the time following Gavin around and can better focus on what they need instead.