ok, now I see my other long post lol. I had to relog in to livefyre. just an update. working on the foodstamp thing. took a test for new job on saturday and they called me today for a interview for tomorrow with training starting on the 12th if all goes well. past being mad at the job i lost cause i didnt want to be there anyway. i did get to the pharmasist and 2 prescriptions was only $20. if i get the new job it wont start till may 12 so i wont have to worry about getting my son to aprils ivig appt. still have to figure out what to do about paying the rhuemetologist. i told them i would pay $90 on the 15th still dont know how i am going to do that, he has to be paid cause he is the one that writes my kids scripts and got him the ivig. i did forget my tag is due but whatever. it is an older car so it is $80. my oldest son lent/gave me $2K last month so i wouldnt worry about money so i dont want to ask for more. He would be mad if he read this as he would put more in my acct and be mad cause he didnt know i needed something. great kid 26 and doing great at work and loves his brother and his mama. I didnt call att yet about the bill but did call and suspended my cable. it doesnt cost anything to do that. Seriously though, there is nothing else to cut. i have to have a phone my son has to have a phone and internet since he is homebound (he told me to cut the cable off for real he didnt care). i am using the least amount of electricty as possible to try to get that bill down. it is only $100 a month (on budget billing i love). i just dont know where to cut!!! one good thing about not having any money is that since the car just got paid off, i could go get a title loan. Great news is I wont do that cause there is no money to pay that back as i have to get to work so cant lose the car. it will all work out. thanks for all you do Rob and Lizzie. I know yalls stuff is way worse than mine but just know someone is out here that is struggling with a sick kid and no money or job or foodstamps and i feel i will be ok still.

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no idea. i should start my own blog so when i am being bitchy about my life i wont have to use yours. The latest drama is on Friday i lost my job of one month. the reason, “i am not a good fit”. i tried to get her to elaborate and she wouldnt at all. No explanation, no severence (not that i would get anything after a month anyway). WTH . in less than the month i had been there i had a consumer write an email about how helpful i was (unsolicited), then the other day I was on a sales conference call. It was my first one, so I emailed the guy who was running it to say thanks and to introduce my self. He emailed me back and said quote ” Welcome aboard. Thanks for your participation today, it was welcomed and appreciated. You sound like you have a great attitude and are ambitious, two things that are very important but can’t be taught, good for you!” This guy didn’t have to say that. he could have emailed me back and said just whatever not all that. i came to work everyday and i was never late. Guess what did happen while i was there (not that I am blaming my kid at all) my son had to go into the hospital and was in for 10 days. i didnt take off work as i was paid hourly and we have to have the money and my son is 21 etc. I went at lunch every day to see him and went up after work. the hospital was about 10 minutes away. I gave them a heads up about my son being in the hosptial and that I didn’t think I would be late from lunch, but just in case it would be a few minutes. I was NEVER late coming back from lunch. They said it was ok anyway if I was. I am a very nice person, i would never be mean to a client, or anyone i worked with and i am the best minding employee there is. I looked in the mirror once again to see if it was me. I just can’t see it if it is me. Were they overwhelmed that my kid was in the hosptial even though i didnt bring the drama to work (really kept it to a minimum) I really really worked hard and called people to invite them to a seminar that was going to be last minute and we had a great turnout. That was all because of me. I didn’t annouce that i am just saying it here. i went today for testing for another job i had in the works (thank goodness). They were so nice when i interviewed and i told them then i would need to be off work once a month for my sons ivig and they were good with that. it is so frustrating. I know my son thinks it is his fault. which it isnt. I just went ahead today and cut off my cable as it is too high. thank God i made my last car payment last month. but still i have to have money for my regular bills. i dont have credit cards. what i do have is copays for dr visits and prescriptions and rent (low) and utilities. thank God again i have obamacare for me and my son but that is $151per month which i am satisfied with but still have to have money to pay it. i am so frustrated. i am a great worker. i have to find a job that someone wants me to be there and can afford me. maybe they had something else going on and couldnt afford me? Or was it i had a $60k sales in the works that would have netted me $6K and the other salesreps (just two there) arent having that kind of success (dont get me wrong they have been there for about 10 months and I am sure they are fine). but what would it matter the company would be making a killing off what i was going to bring in. I didnt even have a quota yet. you dont have one for three months. So the problem had to be me right? it cant be because of my sick son cause i didnt take off any extra. maybe they thought i should have and thought badly that i didnt. but then they would have to say, you go be with you son and we will still pay you the stupid $11 per hour (thats right just $11 but I was grateful as I could see more money coming on the commision end) or it was there problem. I kinda think it was me because i was having weird vibes the whole time, but why hire me. there was more than one person interviewing me during the hiring process. the other guy they hired stayed 3 days and quit without calling in. i am going to wait till tomorrow to call att about that bill to try to get it down. i have to go tomorrow and get sons meds refilled. i have to pay for it and it will be reasonable but when the acct starts going to zero it sucks. talked to the food stamp lady the other day and had to fax her where i sent my 6 month info by internet. I had to repeat what the problem was three times. it was like she wasnt all the way there. then she says i have to fax the proof over. i couldnt use the work fax. havent had anything on my card since 19th of last month because of the error and it took 3 weeks for them to decide who my social worker was (which was why the lady they told me to call didnt call me back, then she did and gave me another name and number had to call her three times and she tells me to fax her and gave me two numbers as she wasnt getting some peoples faxes. i faxed the info from the library today as i wouldnt have used the fax at work. should have since i dont work there now lol. everything is going to be ok. i am ok. i am just so frustrated. when i take my son for his ivig, i have to pay there copay and i told the rhumatologist i would pay him $90 on payday so i would be sent to collections cause then they wont write his refills. i do get a paycheck on the 15th which is great but i have to pay the rent that will be due on the 1st which i had planned to pay with the paycheck that i would get on the 1st (which i am not getting now) so i will need to call people and tell them i will be late i guess. i dont know. i will worry tomorrow. thanks for your blog love your family

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