Feeling pretty disappointed but trying to remain positive

Today was not a very active day for me.  My goal for each day is to achieve at least 10,000 steps.  That’s my Fit4Autism goal and I think it’s pretty reasonable. 

Unfortunately, I didn’t even get half way to that mark because I spent most of the morning asleep on the couch. 

For some reason, my allergies were totally kicking my ass on Sunday and I literally sneezed so much that I woke up this morning feeling like I had been hit by a train.  I was going to make myself go walking, in hopes that I would feel rejuvenated but Lizze wouldn’t let me. 

She said I looked like death warmed over and she told me to go back to bed. 



I’m grateful for that because in a way, it’s like not going was outside of my control and so I can assign less guilt to that.

At the same time however, at the end of the day, I’m left looking at my total steps and can’t help but feel disappointed….. That’s said, each and every step I take is a step in the right direction. 

This is why I chosen to measure my progress in steps and not miles. 

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  • Raynette Jones says:

    you can only do what you can do. I like for you to be on the couch asleep because you hardly get to

  • Don’t be disappointed, its better to rest when you don’t feel good than to sit out due to a major illness for several days. I hope you are feeling better.

      • Raynette Jones says:

        good, I am trying to run your life cause it seems I cant run mine lol

        • Isn’t that the truth.. I can help other people but not myself… Must be a forest for the trees thing. ….. 😉

          • Raynette Jones says:

            It is actually a coping mechanism (well that is what the therapist said lol). it really comes in handy like you are able to do this blog and all that other stuff and for me, I go with my friends to the doctor so they will be treated right or get the meds they need. A lot of people are not able to do that. If you have a problem with a bill I am the one to take with you lol. I think it helps us think we can control something or something like that. I didnt get that way till after my kid got sick and i realized drs, pharmasist, admin and schools are crazy as hell sometimes so something of mine kicked in and i was off to the races for anyone. I would like to be one of the paid people advocates for people but those jobs i have seen, take a nursing degree. cant go there heck no. it is so weird any of the times my son was in the hospital and stable it seemed that people were drawn to me and the whole hospital floor of patients were coming to me to help them get stuff or people straightened out. probably cause they heard me being completely crazy on someone. I swear i would start off nice fixing one of my issues with the hosptial or whoever but then “they” wanted to act like I was stupid. my kid used to say if i asked the person “do you think I am stupid” then it was on. we didnt even say “stupid” at my house. I am so sorry my kid had to hear all he did. the other reason i couldnt be one of those advocates is that they would end of throwing me out of the hospital or ban me from places. That alone is bad because I am one of the nicest, most helpful caring people there are but you cant not treat my kid any kind of way especially if it was life or death. i would rather have that on my hands instead of just letting something go on that i knew wasnt right. one of the reasons i wont be a nurse is because of patient’s mothers like me. my new job starts on 5-27 and the great news is they have EAP or an Employee Assistance Program that starts on day one and it means I get to go get me some free therapy. God knows I need it. hang in there. i admire your whole family for hanging in there. Oh, I meant to tell you that my ex sister n law that is still my friend that I would be the guardian of her child (now adult) if something happened to her, she just got her EMT certificate. She loves it. she needed something good to happen to her cause she has 4 planned kids, one which is autistic and a stupid ex husband. she is having a good week right now and she really needs one. it always seems like something is going bad for her all the time. her autistic kid is good but now he is 21 and i am looking into what he is to do next (me running her life lol).