I haven’t updated anyone on the status of Operation Hope in quite some time. The truth of the matter is that I don’t know how much hope I have left.
At this point, as far as we know, Gavin is medically as stable as we can make him. That’s a good thing.
The part without hope is in regards to his mental health and behavioral problems. While he’s not 18 years of age and therefore cannot be officially diagnosed as a Sociopath, that doesn’t change who and what he is now.
Gavin’s behavior has been consistent since he was little and has only gotten worse as he gets older.
You don’t just become a sociopath when you turn 18, you’re a sociopath that turns 18. Does that make any sense?
The reality is that nothing we do for him at this point will make any difference in this part of his life. We have fought nature tooth and nail. We’ve tried to nurture the nature out of him. We’ve tried to teach him, love him and show him the way but unfortunately, as it turns out, it wasn’t enough.
The only thing we can do is make sure he takes his meds (which has become somewhat problematic as of late) and try to keep him as stable as possible.
We can deal with his health issue and pursue any and all possible avenues to help him survive. However, that has become more challenging as a result of his compulsive lying and faking of symptoms.
I can’t shake the feeling that we’ve run out of ways to help him. There is a feeling of hopelessness that weighs very heavy and now fills ever nook and cranny that was once filled to the brim with hope. I feel like all we have left to do is hunker down and survive as long as we can until we can figure out something else…..
In so very many ways, Operation Hope has become Operation Hopeless and that hurts beyond words.
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