I’m not overly religious but I do have faith. I was raised Catholic and went to Catholic school all the way through college. I believe in God and I pray from time to time.
I know that many people don’t like the idea of questioning God.
Having said that, as a father of three special needs boys, I been known to question God from time to time.
As things get more and more difficult, I’m finding myself wondering something. It’s a question that is burning and so I just have to ask it.
Did God make a mistake?
I guess what I mean is, did God make a mistake when he decided I was strong enough to be a special needs parent?
I wonder sometimes, well, actually more than sometimes, if God overestimated my strength and ability to do what needs to be done. I just feel like I can’t do this sometimes.
Maybe God sees something more in me then I do in myself.
It just seems that things are so complicated and overwhelming that nothing I can do ever seems to be enough.
Do any of you ever feel the same way?
I may have my expectations for myself set a little to high but there is a basic standard my family deserves. I can just never seem to meet those standards.
I know that I need to lighten up on myself but how do you do that when it comes to your family?
I’ll probably feel better if and when things settle down but it’s just been pretty rough lately.
**Thanks for reading**
-Lost and Tired
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