I know it’s no secret that life with an Autistic child can be challenging. I also know that for some, myself included, that can be a gross understatement.
There are so many days that I feel like I just can’t continue. The struggles are just to great and I don’t know if I can find the strength to get up, even just one more time. Sometimes,the last few hours of the day are the absolute most difficult to survive. I know at least some of you out there understand what I’m talking about.
While everything I said is the truth, at least my truth, there is one exception.
Every night, when I check on my babies, the very same ones that were driving me crazy all day long, I see them sleeping so peacefully. In the brief moments that I see them before I drift off to sleep myself, I realize just why I go through this, day in and day out.
I do it because they are worth it. I do it because, despite all the heartache and frustration I experience each and every day, I truly love them more than anything in the world.. In these brief moments, I remember that they need me. I remember what it was like to watch them be born and hold them for the very first time. I also remember the promise I made each of them in their first few seconds of life.
I promised to always be there for them, no matter what. That no matter what includes all the chaos and all the challenges.
Sometimes it takes a moment like this to help me gain perspective and remember why I get up each and every morning just to go through the same struggles that I went through the day before.
I see my angel’s sleeping peacefully, safe and sound. This is the last thing I see before I close my eyes and prepare for the next day.
This is where I find the strength to keep going. I just wanted to share that with all of you. 🙂
**Thanks for reading**
-Lost and Tired
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Posted from WordPress for Android so please forgive the typos. Auto-correct and I don’t get along very well.
My 7 yr old old son (my heart) is "sleeping peacefully" in the room next to me. I'm VERY moved by your words. Thank You.
I LOVE this post and sign off on it. I'm a single parent of two boys, ages 9 and 10 – both diagnose as being autistic. Not only do I sign off on this post, I thank you for posting it.
My thoughts exactly… I have a 3yr old autistic son and a 14 month old typical son and sometimes my typical son drives me more crazy then my autistic son, but my love for them is what keeps me going, and my determination to help my autistic son as much as I humanly can.. My boys are my world and I could not imagine my life without them just the way they are.. Yessss it's very hard sometimes but we get through it..<3<3<3 they are my heart
I am brought to tears from your words of absolute love for your children. There is few words to describe the love one has for their children….you put into perfect words. I love that feeling of my heart swelling in my chest while looking down at my little girl as she sleeps…..we are their protectors, teachers and givers of life…..we must cherish them!