Sometimes I wish life was easier. I totally get that so many people out there have it worse, but sometimes my life is a lot for me to try an manage. I’m grateful for everything I have and while it’s far from perfect, it’s my life, and I love it. That doesn’t mean I don’t wish things could be a bit easier from time to time. This week has been challenging for a few reasons and while I’ve weathered it for the most part, it’s taken me down a few notches.
I’m tired and overwhelmed. At the same time, I’ve also been productive and slightly more focused. I still haven’t spoken with my doctor about my ADHD concerns, and I’m not sure why. I’ve spoken privately with some of you recently and you’ve shared your personal experience with being diagnosed with ADHD as an adult. I’m so grateful to gain your insight and I can relate to much of what you’ve experienced. I appreciate you.
Today has been a little rougher for me on a couple different levels but I always find a way to keep going. I’m not sure how healthy that is, but that’s really all I know how to do. I’m terrible at asking for help because I don’t like to burden others with my problems. I’ve always been that way and I keep trying to change that but you know – it’s not easy.
I did go to the gym but didn’t finish my workout. But I showed up and put in a good 45 minutes. That definitely counts for something. While I didn’t finish because I had an unplanned, last minute meeting pop up, it still felt good to go and expend the energy.
I’ve had meetings all week and they’ve all been really positive. I have more between now and Friday as well. I’m looking forward to these meetings because they’re fantastic opportunities for me.
Honestly, I’ve definitely had worse days. It wasn’t that bad, but today was one of those days where I could have really used a hug. Maybe that sounds weird but hugs are amazing and on days like these, they make all the difference in the world.
Again, it wasn’t really a bad day, just a draining one. I’m looking forward to a good nights sleep and less stressful day tomorrow. The kids are going to my parents after school, so I’ll get a little break for a few hours. I’m definitely in need of some time off. Here’s to hoping I sleep well and the school remain open when I wake up. ☺
Rob, I don’t mean this in any way, shape or form as being critical or nasty, but please don’t get focused on you maybe or maybe not having ADHD. Focus on the things that are going good in your life as you have been doing. Don’t let this thought drag you down a rabbit hole where it consumes your life and thoughts. You are on the right path….stay on it.