I've talked in great detail about my battles with depression and the challenges I face as an Autism parent. Those things have sorta drowned out everything else and that includes a major battle I'm fighting that makes all of these things worse. For the last few weeks, I've been struggling with insomnia. People deal with insomnia all the time and I'm not entirely new to insomnia either. During my withdrawal from Paxil, I went through a period of time where I simply couldn't not fall asleep. It was a rough go for a little while but as quickly as it appeared, it was gone. Out of nowhere, it's come to visit again and like any unwanted houseguest, it's causing problems. As an Autism parent, I don't get enough sleep as…

As a Autism parent, my status quo is stressed out and overwhelmed. I think you'd be hard pressed to find an Autism parent who doesn't feel this way from time to time. It's important to understand that many of the things that we worry about on a daily basis as Autism Parents, are unique to Autism parents. That can make it harder for people to understand. Lately, I've had days where I'm so overwhelmed, stressed out and worried about things I have zero control over, it feels like I'm drowning. Other times it can feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of everything I have to carry each day. Getting up in the morning can be very difficult sometimes because I already know that today will be more of…

I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed this morning and I'm not entirely sure why. I've been feeling anxious and like there's just too much going on for me to cope with. I honestly can say that it isn't just one thing that weighing on me, it's the totality of everything. On most days, I'm able to take things on, one or two at a time and cope. On days like today, I taking on everything at once and it's crushing. This isn't something I'm doing on purpose or even consciously but the impact on me is significant. I'm literally shaking as I write this because I can't seem to center myself and it's more than I'm able to adapt to at the moment. I need to remove myself from the game for…

I mentioned in the previous post that I was in a weird place. I also said I would talk about it in the next post because I needed to sort my thoughts and find my words. Here's the thing, my thoughts are all over the place right now and the words to describe where I'm at are still elusive. I'm far from the only person going through this and I'm constantly being told that I express what so many others are feeling but never say out loud. My hope is to help those of you who may read this read this and relate, to take comfort in the knowledge they aren't alone in their struggle. To everyone else, I hope the insight helps you to better understand how special needs…