My appointment has come and gone. It was a mixture of good news and news I was expecting.  First of all, my bloodwork was better and she's happy with it for the most part. There's room for improvement though and I'm okay with that. What's life without goals.. ☺  Next comes the bad-ish news I was expecting. My weight is a problem and so is my blood pressure. Taking care or my weight will likely have a very positive impact on my blood pressure.  I go back in February. If my weight and blood pressure haven't improved, I'll have to go on medication.  I'm not going to let that happen.  As always, my doctor was super cool about everything and wasn't judgemental at all. She's concerned and so am I.…

Elliott and I are chilling in the waiting room at my doctor's office. We made it a few minutes early and the room is packed with people. I've decided that I'm not going to be nervous. I'm going to march in there and own my body.  I'm going to learn from my mistakes and focus in what I need to do better.  It's important that I give myself credit for what I'm doing well and continue moving forward. ☺ 

This week is going to be crazy busy. On top of work related things, I have to get my family to roughly eight appointments before Friday. School begins on Thursday, which is ridiculous if you ask me. Why start the school year on a Thursday?  Something else that's happening this week is the planning stages for our trip to Florida. There's so much to consider when planning out the logistics, as it's going to be a long drive, over fifteen hours to be more precise.  Flying isn't an option because we don't know how Gavin's body would react to the pressure changes, plus he's terrified of being off the ground.  I'm going to begin working in this today and I'll let you know how it goes. 

Lizze was up early and let me sleep in for awhile. I'm not feeling as stressed out this morning as I was last night. I just want to make it through today and see what my doctor has to say about my lab results.  Obviously, they were too bad because no one called me, but I'm anxious to know if I improved at all,  I'm going to walk into the doctors office, own everything, learn from my mistakes, and do better next time. ☺ 

I'm feeling a bit of anxiety about this afternoon because I see my doctor for a check up. Despite my efforts, I'm not losing a great deal weight, and my blood pressure is high enough that it concerns me.  I've lost a total of 11lbs but not much has happened since, but I'm not gaining it back either. Little victories right?  My real concern is chronic stress. The amount of stress I endure each day is indescribable. I tend to think of it as radiation exposure. A little bit here or there won't hurt too bad. However, taking a stroll in downtown Chernobyl is not something anyone would recommend.  Maybe that's not the best analogy but the point is, long term exposure to stress can be catastrophic. Much like radiation,…