Read more about the article So Gavin started running a low grade fever tonight
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So Gavin started running a low grade fever tonight

It's been a really challenging day for about a million reasons. I was going to touch on some of those reasons but yet another issue has made itself known and this is going to be the priority until I know otherwise. Gavin is running what is a low grade fever for him. He's very much like his mother in the sense that they usually run a bit low and almost never run a fever. Lizze was notorious for having really bad strep throat but never running a fever. Gavin's always been very similar. Elliott noticed that Gavin's ears were bright red and became concerned. I'm not worried about his ears being red but to help put his concerns to rest and that of Gavin's because Elliott said something to him,…

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November 30, 2020
Read more about the article Here’s what happened this past week
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Here’s what happened this past week

It's been a couple of days and the truth is, I'm just overwhelmed right now. The kids are a handful lately and after almost 270 days of our avoiding COVID journey, I think that is to be expected. Just because it's expected or understandable, doesn't mean it's easy. We had a relatively quiet Thanksgiving and ended up ordering Denny's via Doordash. We had cooked a turkey a few days prior and the kids wanted breakfast from Denny's. I figured, why the hell not.. That was pretty much the bulk of our week. I think we went for one hike and that was about it (pictures below). The battery in the car went bad and I had to get it replaced. I also had to do that while preserving as much…

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November 29, 2020
Read more about the article It’s Monday for anyone losing track of the days
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It’s Monday for anyone losing track of the days

Generally speaking, Monday and I don't get along. We've been doing this same song and dance for my entire adult life. I feel like Monday tends to shit all over me and that sucks. Typically, I don't even bring it up because Monday will simply reply with fuck you, I missed a spot. It's been a pretty rough morning and I doubt that surprises anyone. Both boys aren't feeling well. I called the school and said I was giving Emmett a late start to see if he'd feelnbeeter enough to make it the rest of the day. He made it through his second class and couldn't go any further. Elliott wasn't feeling well either but he was able to push through his morning classes. Gavin's currently receiving his IVIG Infusion…

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November 23, 2020
Read more about the article Fingers crossed that I sleep tonight
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Fingers crossed that I sleep tonight

You know what? It's actually been a pretty good day. Obviously, it wasn't perfect or stress free but I don't think those days even exist. I feel like we made some progress around the house and for the most part, the kids got along with each other. I'm always grateful for that and it helps to maintain a positive tone for the day. It's amazing how something so simple can change the demeanor in the house. I didn't get a whole lot of work done but I've written twice and that hasn't happened in forever. That's big for me and it's progress. This week I need to focus on finishing up episode 39 and before Wednesday. That should be relatively easy, assuming the boys let me have the time needed…

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November 22, 2020
Read more about the article That’s what makes you awesome
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That’s what makes you awesome

I don't know if you're new here or not but in case you are, you should know that I see a therapist every Wednesday. I feel like it's important to share that because there's too much stigma surrounding therapy. My therapist is awesome and she's helping me to deal with everything I've been through.  I feel like I'm doing okay. I've moved on from my marriage ending and I no longer carry that pain around. Therapy has really helped with that. Unfortunately, some things can't be learned in therapy and are only learned through life experience. I've not written like this in a long time but I just feel like I need to dig down and put my thoughts into words. There's a lot of stress associated with being an…

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November 19, 2020
Read more about the article He’s been going through so much and had basically shut down
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He’s been going through so much and had basically shut down

So I've been dealing with less sleep than usual because Elliott has decided that he wants or needs to hangout when he can't sleep. The last few nights, he knocks on my door and asks if he can hang out. He's been going through a lot and basically shut down for a long time. When he asks to hang out, that's amazing in my world and the last thing I want to do is turn him away. At the same time, it's well after midnight and I just can't keep doing this. I think he just needs the company because we don't really talk about anything in particular. We just sit on my bed and play Xbox for a little while or watch a movie until my eyes can't stay…

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November 18, 2020
Read more about the article So this is what my day will look like
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So this is what my day will look like

The kids don't have school today and that means less distraction for me. At the same time, that means less distraction for them as well. Unfortunately, that also means I'm going to have to run interference because they're likely to get on each other's nerves. I need to accomplish a couple of things today and one of those things is getting today's episode up on time. That means I'll be staring at this screen for the next couple of hours. I really enjoyed this weeks conversation and should have it ready for your ears later today. The other thing I have to do is mulch the goddamn leaves again. It's only like the 4th time this week. I'd say about 90% of the leaves are down and so this should…

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November 13, 2020
Read more about the article When it comes to remote learning, my youngest is out of shits to give
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When it comes to remote learning, my youngest is out of shits to give

It's been a frustrating day for me and if there was a circus nearby, I might have just run away and joined it. The day started out rough and it just went downhill from there. Actually, it was a rough night prior because Emmett struggled to sleep and literally glued himself to me and that pretty much killed any hopes of me finding sleep. The boys did great in class today. Good for them, I'm very proud. Emmett is struggling a bit with what amounts to the remote learning version of homework. He keeps falling behind and it's clear that remote learning is a struggle for him. It's frustrating for me because I know this isn't what he normally does and trying to constantly stay on him about it, without…

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November 11, 2020