This is one of the hardest things I’ve had to witness and as a father it breaks my heart 

I really struggled with whether or not to share this video with the world. In the end, I decided that there’s nothing that would be embarrassing for because to him, all of this is as real as the nose on your face.  He’s not ashamed, nor should he be. In fact, watching this, I’m in awe of just how well he does manage these two separate lives. 

 My hope is that this will help put into perspective, what Gavin’s living with.  

The video you are about to see is five minutes in length and has no sound.  It’s safe for work and it simply shows what it looks like for Gavin to go on one of his missions.  This is what it’s like to watch Gavin battles evil forces that only he can see.

Gavin came downstairs yesterday afternoon and informed my wife and I that there had just been a big fight back at base. I asked him if it had just happened before he came down and he confirmed that it had.
While he’s telling his Mother and I all about it, I pulled up the video archives and looked back a few minutes.

I was looking to see how Gavin actually, physically experiences his missions. I wanted to know if he was physically interacting with his visibly challenged group of super best friends or if it was the kind of thing that he just sat there and everything sorted faded around him and he was enveloped in a world only he could see.

I suppose it doesn’t really matter because hallucinations can be experienced both ways but it’s been a really long time since one of these episodes has been witnessed.

As I was scrolling through the video archives from moments before Gavin came downstairs to talk, I found the answer to the above question.  Below is what I found.


This clip is silent and lasts about five minutes. The total footage I found was about 30 minutes long but I snipped the smaller clip because it’s enough to help you understand.

I don’t know why seeing this hit me so hard but I was fighting back the tears as I watched this video. Gavin is sorta narrating in the background as he tells us all about what happened while I’m watching the events unfold on video.

I didn’t let him see me upset and held it together as well.  After he went back upstairs, the tears fell.



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