Please don’t get me wrong when I say this, because I truly love Gavin and I wouldn’t have done half the things I’ve already done, currently doing or will be doing in the future if I didn’t.
Gavin is driving me crazy. Yes, I’m very aware of how short that trip is but regardless, he’s driving me there.
When I write about him and what he’s going through, it’s meant to simply provide insight into our lives.
At the same time, people have been following our story for nine years now and have grown to care about our lives and that absolutely includes Gavin as well. I like to keep updates flowing whenever I can.
That being said, I don’t know how much more of Gavin’s current emotional status I’m able to take.
I lost count of how many times he wanted to talk about everything that’s going on in his worlds. He probably talked to me for nearly an hour yesterday about his missions and the only thing I even remember about it is that there is apparently a sleeper agent in the base somewhere and Gavin’s team of super best friends believes it’s him.
I honestly don’t remember anything else because my brain just sorta shutdown after awhile. It’s self-preservation and not something I actively chose to do.
Between that and hearing about his tablet games, I’m not even sure how I survived today.
Like I said, I love Gavin and he’s a really amazing kid. He’s also someone who can talk me to death with a never ending flow of words. Anyone living with a bipolar child who goes manic, can probably relate to what I’m saying.
I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. This could honestly be used as a form of torture. Sorta like chaining someone up so that water drips slowly onto their heads and they can’t do anything about it.
Each drip slowly erodes away ones sanity.
Anyway, it was a rough day. Gavin was super helpful and very well behaved, as always but it was the talking that just did me in.
Whether you understand or even believe me, this incessant talking is so unbelievably draining and completely exhausting. It just sucks the life right out of me.