It's been awhile since I updated you all on how my personal battle with depression is going. I'm not quite sure how to sum things up because there is so much going on in my life. Having said that, I thinks it's safe to say that I've been better but I've also been worse. I'm still taking my medication every day.  I'm still on 40mg of Paxil/day. I do think it helps and while it doesn't make things perfect it does help me to make it through the day.  Sometimes, making it to the end of the day is a victory in and of itself. I've thought about paying a visit to my doctor but truthfully, I'm not sure there's a whole lot more she can do. I talked with…

As you know, we have recently, like within the last week, begun a new journey with Elliott. This journey is kinda one of those bumps in the road that causes you to veer off course, at least for a little while. For us, that bump in the road was the discovery that Elliott has a tree nut allergy. The allergy is more specifically tied to almonds but he can't have any tree nuts anymore. This was most definitely unexpected but something that we are really trying to take in stride. In truth, we're pretty stressed out about this but we're also doing our best not to let Elliott know just how concerned we are.  I think that most kids would be rightfully upset to loose a huge portion of their…

Last night I went to check on Elliott before go to bed.  This is what I found.  Can you see what's wrong with this picture? Let me give you a clue.  It's not so much what's wrong but what's missing. When I went to tuck my 6 year old son Elliott, this is what I found.  What's missing? That's simple, Elliott. In Elliott's place was Emmett's dog Bella.  Apparently, she had kicked Elliott out of his own bed last night.  Bella is one of those dogs that likes to really snuggle.  Sometimes she doesn't realize that she takes you so much room.  She means well but is struggling with boundaries. Ironically, that may need why she fits in so well.  :-)

I tend to not put to much stock in sayings like, "when one door closes another one opens". However, today has opened my mind to the possibility that there may be something to it. As you know, I have been writing for a site Childswork for a few months now.  It was my first paid writing job and I'm really grateful for experience I gained. However, Childswork and I will be parting ways and I will no longer be contributing to their blog. Admittedly I was disappointed to hear this but things happen.  Childswork is undergoing some restructuring and are simply no longer in need of my services.  I just wanted to let everyone hear this from me first.  There are no hard feelings and I harbor no animosity whatsoever. …

I mentioned the other day that Emmett was just beginning another fever flare. He's got mouth sores now and they are beginning to get pretty big. Emmett is obviously miserable and that makes for a very challenging situation.  You can see one of these sores in the picture below.  No one has been able to identify the actual cause of this. Right now it's labeled as PFAPA, which is a rare fever disorder. The fever part has gotten better this year, however, the mouth sores have gotten worse.  If you could please just keep Emmett in your thoughts and prayers over the next 10 days or so, I would really appreciate it. 

I wanted to kind of explain what happened today.  I'm completely exhausted and I don't have a lot of energy. We still have therapy for the boys tonight and so I won't be able to even sit down until around the time the boys will be going to bed. I wanted to take a few minutes and briefly explain what's going on at this point.  The experience was largely positive and the intake was probably among the most comprehensive and thorough I've ever experienced. A very pleasant and soft spoke nurse basically interviewed Lizze for about 2 hours. Essentially, they concurred that Lizze and the program were a match and that basically, she qualified for entrance. It's not quite that simple but you get the point. We learned more details…

Lizze and I arrived and the Cleveland Clinic asked few minutes ago. She's filling out paperwork and I'm be supportive and trying to pass the time.  Lizze and I are really long conversation on the way up here this morning.  We discussed many things, ranging from Elliott,  Gavin and Emmett to this whole thing with pain rehabilitation. Lizze is really nervous about trusting this whole thing.  For that reason,  I have decided to call this new journey we are about to embark on, The Leap of Faith. The reason for that is pretty straight forward.  Lizze is taking good a huge leap of faith by trusting the new doctors and in a process that she is unfamiliar with.  Being off her medications scares her to death, and they plan on…

In a few minutes, we will be on our way back to the @ClevelandClinic for Lizze's intake evaluation.  This is moving along rather quickly and is going  to involve a great deal of change in Lizze's life.  As an aspie herself, change doesn't come easily and she is very, very nervous about this whole thing. My hope is that after today she will feel a bit more at ease with her decision to go through with this.  Today's appointment is supposed to last about 2 hours and is very thorough, from what I understand.  We will also learn more about the program of which there are less than half a dozen of in the entire country.  Hopefully, we'll figure out how we will pull this one off and be able…