I had this really nice post all planned out. The boys are at their Moms until noon on Saturday and the house is quiet as a result.  Rather than use this time to relax, I can't stop thinking about Maggie.  She goes in for surgery next Thursday to remove a tumor that has the vet very concerned. I haven't said anything to the boys yet and I'm not sure when I will.     I'll only be able to hide this from them for so long because they will have to go with me to drop her off for the surgery. They'll see the stitches and the fact that Maggie will have on the cone of shame for a few days.  I can't help but worry about everything because if this…

Just got back from the vet with Maggie and it's not very good news.  On the positive side, the lump on her chest is just a fatty cyst and is of no concern. The lum on her right leg is a different story all together.  The bet said that it's hard like a rock, attached to somethings internally and growing rapidly.  She explained that it needs removed right away. Right away turns out to be next Thursday morning.     They will put her under the knife in the morning and remove the tumor. Once removed, they will decide if it's going to need a biopsy or not.  If it does need a biopsy, they will let me know and I'll need to approve the additional cost.  Gavin went with me…

It's the end of yet another week and I'm ready for it to be over.   The boys went off to school relatively easily and I'll be getting my walk in this morning, although I don't even come close to feeling up to it.  I didn't sleep well last night and so I'm really dragging this morning.  My goal is to really push through the next 3.1 miles and gain some much needed energy to finish the rest of the day with. 😀   

The boys went to bed tonight without a problem. I'm going to be visiting my bed in just a little bit but I'm not quite ready yet.  While I was putting him to bed tonight, Emmett said he doesn't want to go to school in the morning. I'm truly praying that we aren't already going down the I don't want to go to school today because my tummy hurts road already..    It's so hard to figure out what's going on with him because it's not easy for him to share how's he's feeling and if I ask him, he gets really upset. Absolutely nothing comes easy and I'm just trying to get my kids through the day, so we can end up doing it all over again the next. …

The boys got off to school and I was able to squeeze in my walk this morning..     The walk was amazing but it totally wore me out because I was already at a deficit due to Emmett getting up so early. I ended up taking a nap afterwards and woke up feeling completely recharged. 😀 I need to really keep pushing myself to be as active as I can because I can sorta feel that my depression is creeping it's way back into my daily life and exercise is the only that has every truly helped me battle it.  That simply can't be allowed to take over and I don't plan on letting that happen. 

Emmett began refusing to go to school at the ungodly hour of 4am. He said he wasn't feeling good.     Here's the thing with Emmett. He struggles with expressive language still and that makes it more challenging to figure out what he has going on. I have to rely heavily on behavioral changes that I notice for information on how he's doing.  This probably goes without saying but we got off to a rough start this morning.  On the positive side, he ended up willingly going to school and even did so in a good mood. I truly hope that he continues to have a better day. ❤️😀👍

This past week, Elliott decided that it's a really good idea for him to practice taking care of a child. I have no idea where this came from but Dr. Pattie suggests it might be about gaining some control. He wants to practice taking care of a doll but is really embarrassed by that idea.  I have spent the last few days trying to instill in him that it's perfectly okay for him to want to practice caring for a child by using a surrogate like a doll. There's nothing wrong with boys playing with dolls or girls playing with trucks.     Now this isn't as cut and dry as it sounds because he's become extremely obsessed with this idea and it's interfering with his daily life. This isn't really any…