A quick update

I've slowly been getting myself back into gear with the podcast. I've taken the last month off and it's been so much less stressful but at the same time, I miss doing it and really want to get things moving again. I've begun scheduling recordings this week and while I'm a little nervous, I'm also excited because I'm going to be adjust my setup in a way that will make this process much smoother. I'm not gonna lie. The downtime was really nice and there's a part of me that doesn't want to get this going again but I'll regret it if I don't. Anyway, I wanted to drop a super quick update on this cause it's been a little while. In other news, there's been a hiccup in the…

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The #meltdowns were awful today

Today's been a bit of a struggle for a number of reasons. The most obvious is the COVID19 stuff but today is also the one year anniversary of my grandmother's passing. I've been a bit distracted today so it didn't really hit me until bedtime. The kids found me crying in my room tonight and I had to remind them of what day it was, which created distress for them. It sucks losing family and she was the end of an entire generation. I really miss her. Gavin had a few blow outs today and I'm not sure what is going on with him. He doesn't remember about my grandma, or at least that today was a significant day. He's been decompensating due to everything happening around him, mainly the…

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We’ve been on #COVID-19 Lockdown for 100 Days

We hit a milestone today that was not on my 2020 bingo card. The kids and I have been on COVID-19 lockdown for 100 days now. When I say lockdown, I mean zero contact with anyone in 100 days. The only exception was the kids seeing their mom for two or three days after her household went on quarantine for two weeks. This has been a pretty strick lockdown due to the fact Gavin is immunocompromised. While I don't think he's necessarily more likely to catch it, he's more likely to have a negative outcome, therefore he's considered very high risk. I have to take this very, very seriously and so we've spent the last 100 days making sure that we are quarantined, so there is as little risk as…

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I haven’t felt this overwhelmed in a long time

Over the last decade, this blog has evolved into whatever it is now. One of the things that have remained consistent throughout is the honesty with with I write. I may not write as much anymore and my writing isn't as inspiring as it once was, but it's just as honest as the day is long. I'm writing tonight because I feel like I'm failing in so many areas of my life. In fairness, I do realize that a large part of this is my depression talking but I'm pretty sure I'd feel like this anyway. It's been a particularly difficult day because I'm not handling Gavin very well. Gavin's in a very weird place right now and I don't know what's going on with him. He's regressing in a…

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I’m so grateful for yesterday

I fell asleep last night before I could finish writing and while that's a bit inconvenient, I'm grateful that I fell asleep. Sleep has been very problematic as of late. Anyway, the boys and I had a pretty good day. I think I mentioned that my lawn mower died after about 15 years of use and 8 had to order a new one. It was delivered yesterday afternoon and I was able to get the yard cut. It's fantastic and I can't wait for the grass to grow back so I can use it again. We spent some time cleaning out the garage and making a new home for the mower. I put our old one out by the curb and it was snatched up very quickly. I suppose it's…

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If my sensory sensitive kids with #Autism can wear a mask, WTF is your excuse?

I know I'm not writing nearly as often as I normally do and the truth is, depression is really kicking my ass. I'm still functional but definitely struggling. As of today, we've been on lockdown for 98 straight days. As you can probably imagine, it's running a bit long in the tooth at this point. Unfortunately, there simply isn't any other options. With Gavin being immunocompromised, there literally isn't another way to keep him safe. We're in this for the long haul and that's likely to be awhile. I've been hearing from readers both here and on social media, that their husband, wife, daughter, son or other loved one is immunocompromised as well and they're in the exact same boat. While my heart goes out to all the other families…

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Do You Suffer From Aches?

Do you suffer from aches and pains? Perhaps you experience joint pain because of arthritis? Maybe you get a bad back from time to time? No matter what applies, one thing you should consider investing in to ease the pain is a hot tub. If you experience back pain, you will often be advised to apply heat to the area. A hot tub presents one of the easiest and most effective methods of applying heat to a large part of the body. This helps to reduce muscle spasms because the heat from the water will relax the surrounding muscles. Not only this but if you have been injured, the heat can increase blood flow by dilating the blood vessels, which will help to promote healing. Spas can take the edge…

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I’m really grateful for today

The boys and I had a pretty good day. I didn't sleep well last night, again but I made it through the day. One of the things on our to do list today was getting everyone out for some exercise. Gavin was very resistant because he's afraid of getting sick. The path we took almost never has anyone but bikers. Even if they're not wearing a mask, they blow by so quickly, there's no contact. We ended up having to walk by one person and we wore our masks because it's the right thing to do. The rest of the time we were able to breathe fresh air. We had a great time and even took Ruby along with us. Gavin did awesome and felt much better about going. It's…

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