A heartbreaking reminder of how unwell my son is

I’m not going to lie here, I’m so overwhelmed after today. Between the and everything else, I’m emotionally and physically drained. 

To make matters worse, Gavin’s been talking nonstop about his adventures with his team of super best friends. These are of course hallucinations but to him they’re as real as I am. 

What concerns his psychiatrist the most is how strong his delusions are. 

Hallucinations are the things that he sees and hears, that only he can see and hear. He’s delusional because he believes these things to be real. That’s basically the difference between the two. 
Anyway, I have been listening to tell me all about how he single handedly took on and defeated the Shredder and his mutants. He’s so proud of himself. All I can do is smile and tell him good job, all while hiding how much it kills me to hear these things come out if his mouth. 

In his mind these things have actually happened and it feels like in a way, he’s bragging about this in a similar fashion as someone else might brag about hitting the winning home run, scoring a goal or sinking a three pointer at the buzzer. 

As his father, it’s painful to know that he’s so detached from reality. Everytime he talks about this stuff it’s a stark reminder of just how unwell he really is. 

This has taken a terrible toll on my heart and soul because I want so much better for Gavin. He didn’t ask for any of this and frankly, neither did I. 



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  • I know I’m not being helpful…I just have to make sure. My son was on ritalin (10mg BID) for 9 years. When we went to the patch –it was just a little over, 25 mg, I think…he started hallucinating. We immediately quit, he was suspended 3x, and that’s when we started homeschooling. I am aware it may not be related at all. But I do understand how heartbreaking and frightening it can be when your child is talking about imaginary friends being real.

    • I’m sorry this happened. Thank you for sharing and being able to relate. While Gavin’s situation is different, watching our kids go through anything like this is heartbreaking. I’m always here if you need anything. For the record, it’s so helpful anytime someone can relate or just cares enough to leave a comment. �

  • My son’s health issues are different, but I get the worry you have for your child. The kind of aching worry that physically hurts. I can accept the , but does my son have to be so damn unhealthy too? I have no advice or anything helpful to say, only that I understand the feeling you’re talking about and it sucks.

    • I so get it my friend. This is not an easy path we travel. All the best… �

  • I’m sorry this happened. Thank you for sharing and being able to relate. While Gavin’s situation is different, watching our kids go through anything like this is heartbreaking. I’m always here if you need anything. For the record, it’s so helpful anytime someone can relate or just cares enough to leave a comment. �

  • I so get it my friend. This is not an easy path we travel. All the best… �