It was a long night and I'm exhausted. Lizze sent me back to bed and left me undisturbed until I woke up on my own. Thank you for that.. ☺ I will say that it's amazing how lack of sleep impacts, even after getting an extra long nap. Truthfully, I feel pretty good but at the same time, I'm also feeling drained. There's absolute truth to the notion that you cannot make up for lost sleep. You can get sleep after having lost some but it doesn't undo what the lost sleep did. I don't know if that makes any sense but I bet if you asked most Autism parents if getting an extra long nap undoes the previous nights loss of sleep, I bet most would say no. That…

I slept really well last night. I feel like I'm in a much better place than I was when I went to bed. I'm still overwhelmed by everything going on and no amount of sleep is going to fix that. Acknowledging the reality of where I'm at isn't mean to be taken as a negative thing. I try very hard to live in reality, meaning when things are bad, I recognize that things are bad and don't try to spin things. For me personally, dealing with the reality of something, whether it be a positive or negative reality, helps me to maintain balance and perspective. I'm grateful for a decent night's sleep because I don't always get those and know many others out there don't either. I'm also grateful to…

I feel like I'm completely drowning tonight. Nothing is going right and I'm absolutely crumbling under the pressure. I try very hard to remain positive and not give into dispair but dispair has won out tonight. I have nothing left and I give up. Hopefully, a decent night's sleep will help me find a better place by morning. Too many people are counting on me and letting them down is simply not an option. I have to figure things out and do better.