The number one source of stress in my life right now

I'm so incredibly frustrated today because for the millionth time, the pharmacy hasn't delivered or even filled Gavin's Clozapine prescription. I don't understand why this is so fucking complicated. Out of all the medications a pharmacy can fill, Clozapine is the most tightly controlled by a mile. One would think that they would have a procedure for filling it. My job is to make sure that Gavin's blood work is done once every seven days. The labs job is to fax the results to the pharmacy. The pharmacy must then fax the results to REMS. REMS will grant the pharmacy permission to release seven days worth of pills. This process repeats every single week and as long as everyone does their fucking job, we can continue to give Gavin his…


The other shoe just dropped

Anytime we get even a tiny bit of good news, deep down inside, we're waiting for the other shoe to drop. There were three things that I needed to go well today. One was Gavin's lab work, another was Ruby's appointment and finally resolving whatever is causing problems with his Clozapine prescription. I'm not sure what to think about Gavin's labs (see Why good news doesn't always make me feel better), but Ruby's appointment went well (see The first solid piece of good news this week). The last thing has to do with Gavin's meds and that brings me to the other shoe that just dropped. There was a delivery of medications this afternoon and dispite being promised they would fill it, the pharmacy still didn't have Gavin's prescription ready.…


It seems Hell may just have frozen over

For the very first time in weeks, we had something happen that hasn't happened in a long time. That something is Gavin's Clozapine prescription being delivered on time. That's right, Gavin's seven day supply of Clozapine showed up on time. This is a big relief because his Clozapine is extremely time sensitive and he can't miss a single dose. He only gets seven days worth of pills at a time and this is a very dangerous medication. I'm really grateful that everything just clicked today and I definitely give credit to the pharmacy for making sure this happened. I'm hoping this is a sign of things to come... ☺


Why is this so fucking complicated?

The goddamn pharmacy didn't get Gavin's Clozapine filled in time for the second week in a row. This is very time sensitive and it's in a set schedule. Gavin gets his bloodwork done on Monday or Tuesday and they pull the labs Tuesday afternoon. The script gets filled and delivered by Wednesday afternoon. It's really not that complicated because it's the same thing each week. I made several phone calls at the beginning of the week to ensure everything was in order. I even called late Tuesday afternoon to remind them to call for the labs and make sure the script was either ready for pickup or delivered by Wednesday afternoon. I was assured this wouldn't be a problem. Thankfully, we have an emergency supply to cover for disruptions like…