Read more about the article I’m getting sick again
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I’m getting sick again

Today's been rough for me because I've been getting sick again. By sick, I simply mean very nauseated when I eat and unfortunately, I still have to eat. This has only been a problem since discontinuing Paxil in January. While today sucked, my days do seem to be getting better. I just wrote a post about how well I was doing because it'd been a week since I had gotten sick. Sure enough, a day or so later, I start getting sick again. I need to keep my mouth shut from now on. I'm hoping to sleep this off tonight and I'll just keep my intake on the lighter side of not eating much. It sorta sounds funny but that's actually what I'll have to do. I just have to…

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May 11, 2018
Read more about the article Major Update: The State of my Depression
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Major Update: The State of my Depression

It's been awhile since I opened up about my Depression and how I'm doing since discontinuing Paxil. It's been six months since I began the process of weaning off of Paxil. I never imagined it would as bad as it has been. No one ever warned me that Paxil.has such serious withdrawal symptoms for some people. You can read my awful journey in regards to coming off Paxil here. The last few months have been truly awful. I've been sick all the time. It felt like I always had the stomach flu because the nausea was almost unending. I couldn't eat, sleep or fully function. I'm a bit hesitant to say this out loud but it's been about a week or so since I've felt sick after eating. The nausea…

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May 9, 2018
Read more about the article If I had known 6 years ago
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If I had known 6 years ago

I've not been feeling well today and I'm getting really tired of it. Everyday it's wash, rinse and repeat. If I had known six years ago that Paxil would be so devastating to come off of, I would have never gone on it.

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April 19, 2018
Read more about the article Crawling back into bed isn’t an option
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Crawling back into bed isn’t an option

I woke up feeling awful this morning. As time goes on, I seem to be doing a tiny bit better in regards to dealing with the withdrawal symptoms of being of Paxil. This morning however, I work up feeling like I was going to puke again. It's getting so old already. Crawling back into bed isn't an option today because the kids need to get to school and Gavin needs his weekly bloodwork done. I've been finding that if I push through the nausea, it starts to get better the more I move around. That sorta seems counter intuitive and I can't explain it outside of an endorphin thing. Either way, it's still a daily struggle and some days are worse than others. We all have our burdens to bare…

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April 18, 2018
Read more about the article People have been asking my advice on withdrawaling from #Paxil and here it is
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People have been asking my advice on withdrawaling from #Paxil and here it is

I'm not feeling good but for the first time in months, I woke up and didn't feel like I needed to vomit. I'm not nearly 100% but I'm getting there. Quite a few people have been reaching out in regards to my journey and seeking advice about starting theirs. Coming off of Paxil or any other medication for that matter, is a medical decision between you and your doctor. I can only share my personal experiences and what I've learned along the way. The reason I continue to talk about this journey withdrawaling from Paxil is because it's impacting every aspect of my life. It's important to share my experience so others who are considering doing the same thing, know what questions to ask their doctor before taking the plunge.…

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April 7, 2018
Read more about the article Positive changes in my body since stopping #Paxil
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Positive changes in my body since stopping #Paxil

We just got back from this afternoon's appointments and it's been a super long day so far but I've made it this long. ☺ It occurred to me that I've talked in detail about the side effects from Paxil withdrawal that I've been dealing with but not the positive changes in my body since discontinuing the antidepressant. I'm not as miserable as I have been and I just feel rundown, which I suppose is normal for someone living a life like mine. I don't think it's necessarily an unhealthy rundown but more the feeling drained, stressed out and overwhelmed kinda rundown. This whole Paxil thing has kicked my ass but it's getting better and as I mentioned on Twitter the other day, my overall vitals are back within normal range.…

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April 6, 2018
Read more about the article I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem
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I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem

It's been about a month since I took my final dose of Paxil. To say it's been an easy process would be a boldface lie. Frankly, it's been an absolute nightmare. Slowly lowering my dose over 90 days was rough but it didn't truly suck until the Paxil was completely out of my system. Having taken my last dose about 30 days ago, the medication has been out of my system for about the last 25 or 26 days. It's a very short half life and that's one of the reasons it's so hard to come off of. For the first week or two, I was completely overcome by emotion. It was like Paxil had been functioning like a dam and when it was gone, the emotions it had kept…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article Getting kicked in the ass by withdrawal symptoms again
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Getting kicked in the ass by withdrawal symptoms again

The last day or so, I've been feeling better. Tomorrow makes two full weeks since I took my last dose of Paxil. It's been a mixed bag of absolute misery and somewhat survivable. Yesterday I was doing really well and thought I was finally at the tail end of this shit but I was wrong. I've been struggling with emotions today and feeling nauseated. I don't want to eat anything or even think about eating anything. I was supposed to see my doctor on Tuesday but that got bumped because Emmett needed to see his pediatrician. Like I said, I was feeling better and I thought I was past it. With any luck, this is just a minor setback...

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March 21, 2018