It’s been a long weekend and it’s still not over yet cause there’s no school today. There’s not been anything catastrophic that’s happened in the last few days but I feel like I had my ass kicked up one side of the road and down the other.
Truthfully, Lizze and I are both on edge but there isn’t one single thing that’s responsible for our stress. It’s a combination of things and it creates tension between us that we don’t even realize is there until we have a disagreement. It’s nothing major or even worth mentioning other than to illustrate how stress impacts us both.
I know Gavin is wearing on me but so is everyday life.
I’m absolutely exhausted, overwhelmed and truly feeling like life is kicking my ass. I don’t think it’s depression related either because I’m doing good in that arena, at least so far.
There’s a lot going on in our lives right now, some you know about and some you don’t because I’m not in a position to talk about it right now. Suffice it to say, it’s creating a shit ton of stress right now. I need to talk to Lizze about it first but writing about it might help.
Anyway, the moral of the story is that things are rough for us right now and it’s beginning to wear thin. Lizze and I are stressed but otherwise doing well as far as our marriage is concerned. The boys are the boys and Gavin is Gavin. We may be bruised a bit from the ride recently, but we’re a strong family and that’s not going to change.
It’s important to me that I focus on what I can control and for right now, that’s whether or not I get some sleep tonight.
For now I’m going to sign off and get some sleep. I have a long day of no break from the kids again today and I need to be at my best. ☺