I’m really trying to push through all this shit today. Sometimes I feel like I’m doing okay and other times I feel like I’m broken. I’ve been really focused on work lately because I’m getting slammed, which is good but it’s also painfully obvious that I’m a one man operation.
My goal right now is continued growth and meeting the needs of the community. I’ve been going back and forth over the best ways to do that.
After a good bit of thought, I’ve made the decision to add a second episode each week, and I know what you’re thinking. Rob, why would you add more work for yourself when you’re already spread too thin? Great question. The second episode is less than 10 minutes long and I’m answering listener questions. It’s doesn’t require a whole lot of time and it’s helping to climb the charts, which is a goal that I’ve set for myself. Aside from that, it’s nice to answer your questions because it feels like I’m more directly connecting with you all, and helping to light a path.
It’s definitely a positive thing and it’s helping grow the show. So it’s a win – win.
I’m trying to keep my head above water because my kids really need me to step it up right now. Feeling broken is a horrible feeling and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. It’s made worse when I see the impact that my internal struggle is having on my life. I’m dropping the ball in some areas but holding my own in others.
It’s been a rough day for everyone here. Elliott ended up going to his mom’s at the last minute. I’m actually glad to see him reconnecting with her. Things have been a bit tense over the last couple of months and it’s good to see things improving.
Emmett has been in need of some one on one time and I decided to be super spontaneous. We haven’t been to a movie in a long time, and I surprised him with a late night trip to see Top Gun: Maverick. Gavin wasn’t interested, so we dropped Elliott off at his mom’s and went to a 10:50 PM showing. Top Gun is one of my all time favorites and I’ve really wanted to see the new one, as has Emmett.
It didn’t disappoint and we both agree it was the best movie we’ve ever seen.
We didn’t get home until well after 1:30 AM. Neither of us could go to sleep right away cause we were so cranked up from the movie. It was totally worth it because I haven’t had time like this with Emmett in forever. It was definitely nice to see him having such a good time.
When I did finally go to sleep, I did so feeling like I was a decent Dad. I know I’m a good Dad but sometimes, especially on these darker days, I don’t feel like it. I’m grateful for the bit of peace I managed to find as I drifted off.