I finally conquered a paralyzing fear I’ve had for nearly 25 years

Yesterday was a bit more challenging than is usually the case. I was pretty much non-stop until the kids went to bed. I suppose it's non-stop on most days until the kids go to bed but sometimes I can chillout for a little while in between whatever. The big moment that took place yesterday was my return to dentist. As I've already shared, I took a nearly 20-25 year break from the dentist. The reasons were solely related to fear that stemmed from a major trauma at the oral surgeon when I was little. You can read the back story here but maybe don't if you are afraid of the dentist. I finally returned earlier this month and yesterday marked my third visit in two weeks. The first was a…

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How the kids having a rough morning can be viewed in a positive light by #Autism parents

The boys got off to school with relative ease. It's important to understand the relative ease part means that all things considered, it could have been worse. Frankly, any morning we can walk away from in one piece is victory. I wanted to take a minute and help provide some insight into the above paragraph because it can help you better understand some of the challenges facing Autism families like mine. I was expecting a bit of resistance this morning because we had a rough night. Lizze and I took the kids clothes shopping at Kohl's after dinner last night. Gavin desperately needed pants and we had been trying to hold off as long as we could because we're working very hard to help him gain weight. Money is tight…

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Lighting the way for parents facing similar struggles

I'm really trying to keep up with writing. When I first started, almost 10 years ago, you could literally follow us along our journey because I wrote constantly. I don't do that so much anymore but I'm trying to find a middle ground between exhaustion, helping others, my need to write and my readers desire to follow our journey.. Yesterday, I published an article about what my family experienced during the seperation, why it happened and what we learned along the way. That got me thinking about a lot of things. Perhaps I don't need to provide a play by play anymore. Instead, I can help just as many people by sharing stories and/or experiences on a regular basis, in a somewhat coherent manner. 😉 At the end of the…

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I know it can be depressing to read my #Autism parenting story but after you finish reading, I’ll still be living it

Being an Autism Parent is like riding the scariest wooden roller-coaster you can possibly imagine. There are often no brakes and that means you can't get off the ride because it never stops. In many cases, the ride doesn't stop until the day you die. I know it can often be depressing to read about the struggles I face as an Autism and Special Needs Parent. Someone from high school once told me that they don't read my blog because it's too depressing and they don't want the negativity in their lives. It's true and that really hurt to hear that but I get it. While our story is unique in the sense that we are dealing with 3 kids on the Autism Spectrum, as well as some very rare…

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As an #Autism and #SpecialNeeds parent, I sometimes desperately need a sense of normalcy

Lizze and I might have the entire night to ourselves. I'm not sure what we're going to do with our free time but I at least a tiny bit of walking will be part of it. I want to finish the month strong. Money is really tight and a huge source stress/anxiety. Now we have at least a $1,000 deductible to come up with related to our homeowners claim in regards to the storm damage to our house, garage, yard and tree (see It's pretty bad but thank God no one was hurt). Our car is really beyond repair and things like groceries or other everyday expenses aren't getting any cheaper. We're also taking Zane, one of our service ferrets to the vet in the morning because something isn't right…

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I will be achieving a MAJOR goal today

I'm really excited about today. I spoke yesterday about my current struggles with depression and anxiety. Sometimes I have good days and sometimes I have bad days. Today is a mixed bag for me but I'm going to focus on the positive. In a few minutes, I'm going to go walking and if everything goes as planned, I'm also going to reach my goal for the month before I'm done. Over the past 29 days, I climbed into the car and drove to the park to go walking a total of 35 times. The total mileage of those walks is GPS tracked and clocks in at 77.68 miles. My goal is to hit 80 miles this month and I'll do so before the end of my walk today. For me…

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