I’m really struggling with patience today

It’s been one of those days where Autism and ADHD are totally kicking my ass. I love my kids to the moon and back but they are absolutely driving me crazy. 

Gavin’s repeating himself over and over again. Elliott is just melting down like there’s no tomorrow and it’s over every single tiny thing. Emmett’s really the only one keeping his head above water today. 

When Elliott gets like this, there’s absolutely no reasoning with him and he has to be sent to his room to calm down. Sometimes it works and other times it doesn’t. Today has been one of those days where is hasn’t been working. 

I’m very preoccupied with a new problem that Gavin has been experiencing over the last few days that I haven’t shared publicly yet. Perhaps a later post will focus on that.

Anyway, I’m seriously struggling with everything right now. 

I feel like I’m being pulled in a million different directions. I’m spread way, way too thin and I just want to hide away from the world.

This isn’t the easiest thing to admit and I’m not proud of feeling this was but at th same time, I recognize that I’m only human and as such, I’m burdened by all the limitations that come along with claiming the title. Today has been a day that proves just how very human I really am. 

Bedtime is still a few hours away and I’m feeling unsure of whether or not I can make it.