Read more about the article Is this a new hallucination or just a dream?
Gavin / My thoughts / Schizophrenia

Is this a new hallucination or just a dream?

Gavin's been doing okay as far as his Schizophrenia is concerned. We see the obvious symptoms every single day because they've never been completely controlled. Thankfully, Gavin's hallucinations are not as dark as they used to be and they used to be really dark. I never know what to think when he tells me about a dream because it could very easily be a hallucination and he simply wouldn't know the difference. Today he informed me that he'd just saved Christmas from the clutches of evil. He didn't go into any further details, so I'm not sure if it was a dream or a mission. Color me intrigued because it's different than I normally hear from him and I'd actually be interested in hearing the rest.

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December 24, 2017
Read more about the article I had the house to myself
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I had the house to myself

The family is at their Christmas party for the evening. I was really pushing myself to go because I knew we how important it was to Lizze. I'd mapped out directions and dragged myself out of bed. I had layed down because I felt like I was gonna puke but after a few hours, I was feeling better and thought I'd be okay to go. Unfortunately, after about an hour or so of moving around, I wasn't feeling good again. I was stilling willing to push through it and at least make an appearance but Lizze insisted that I stay home and rest. Apparently, I looked about as good as I felt. Anyway, I'm not sure when everyone will be back but I haven't had the house to myself in…

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December 23, 2017
Read more about the article The two youngest never feel asleep
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The two youngest never feel asleep

It was a fun night and by fun I mean awful. Neither Elliott or Emmett ever fell asleep last night. Emmett was in a really weird place and I'm not sure what's going on with him. All of a sudden, he's terrifed of the closet in his room but can't explain why. Unfortunately, there doesn't appear to be anything we can do to comfort him. He's asked us to remove the closet door and hang drywall over the opening so it's just a wall when we're done. That's simply not an option. Even if we played along and made the closet disappear behind a wall, he'd still know it was there. He's just in a weird place right now and I'm hoping we can help him work through this. As…

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December 23, 2017
Read more about the article Technology isn’t useful if it’s not affordable and accessible to the people who need it most
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Technology isn’t useful if it’s not affordable and accessible to the people who need it most

Technology is only useful when it's affordable and accessible to the people who need it most. @vivintgivesback has done just that and made it possible for parents to have the technology they need to help keep their wandering kids with Autism safe. If you need assistance with your technology, BCA IT in Miami is a managed IT service provider that can assist you. Please visit www.theautismdad.com/vivint for more information on how we can help you, as well as my personal experience with this amazing program. Sometimes there are companies out there that genuinely want to make a difference and @vivintgivesback is the very definition of that. Please check this out, it's an amazing program. Meet @The_Autism_Dad. A father of 3 sons with #autism. Watch to see how using smart-home technology…

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December 23, 2017
Read more about the article Unfortunately, I might miss most of #Christmas
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Unfortunately, I might miss most of #Christmas

Our plans have had to be adjusted for this weekend because I'm not doing so well. As of now, I will be staying behind while the boys and Lizze head to the family Christmas party. The boys will be heading to Lizze's parents to spend the day and when it's time for the party, they will pick Lizze up on the way. I feel terrible not going but honestly, I feel even more terrible simply existing at the moment. My hope is that I'll feel well enough to spend Christmas Eve with my in-laws and if I'm really lucky, I'll be okay to see my side of the family on Christmas day. If nothing else, perhaps we can have a quiet, at home Christmas this year.

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December 23, 2017
Read more about the article This is like a medication induced roller-coaster
Depression Management / Medications / My thoughts

This is like a medication induced roller-coaster

I've been trying to rest for a few hours and I'm feeling a little better, thank God. This experience is interesting in the sense that these side effects seem to come and go. It's like a roller-coaster of headaches and nausea.. There isn't really a rhyme or reason, as far as I can tell. It's been a rough day and I'm thankful it wasn't any worse than it was. My back is finally healing up and the hole is almost gone. I left the dressing off for a little while today in order to expose it to the air. Lizze suggested that I remove the bandage at bedtime and until the hole is gone, put a fresh bandage on in the morning. I happen to think that's a pretty solid…

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December 22, 2017
Read more about the article Who knew it would be this hard?
Depression Management / Medications / My thoughts

Who knew it would be this hard?

I'm officially feeling like shit. Coming off of Paxil is a fucking nightmare. I researched this for weeks before making a decision to do this and most people seemed to get really bad withdrawal symptoms. Some people can quit cold turkey and never have a problem. I'm apparently in the first category and there's no way to know own how you're going to react until you do. It feels like I have the flu. My head hurts, I've got the cold sweats and eating anything takes some serious effort cause the idea of food makes me want to puke. It could absolutely be worse because I could be coming off the Paxil much faster. The slower I come off, the less likely I am to suffer really bad side effects.…

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December 22, 2017
Read more about the article I’ve officially hit withdrawal symptoms
Medication Management / My thoughts

I’ve officially hit withdrawal symptoms

As of this afternoon, my body has officially noticed that there's not as much Paxil in my system as it's been used to having for the 5 or 6 years. Not only has it noticed, but it's not very happy about it. Paxil takes about 4.5 days to leave your system and as I'm now on day 5, my body is beginning to notice. All of a sudden, I'm hit with a headache and nausea. This is exactly what has happened when I've fallen off the Paxil in the past. There were times when I was sick and couldn't take my meds cause I was puking everything up. After day 4, I got hit with a headache and even worse nausea than I was already dealing with. What I don't…

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December 22, 2017