For the last week or two, I’ve been having really hard time sleeping at night. I wouldn’t call it Insomnia but rather something else all together.
Not that I wasn’t under tremendous amounts of stress before but this year in particular, has been very stressful. Some of this stress comes from obvious places while other, not so much.
It’s like the moment I lay down to go to sleep, my world just comes crashing down around me.
I get panicky and feel as though I can’t breathe or swallow properly. I know that sounds really weird but that’s what happens. I end up having to move to the couch because I find myself so frustrated and sometimes the change of scenery helps.
I’ve tried things to help fall asleep because once I’m asleep, I’m good to go for the night. Unfortunately, they don’t seem to help out much.
Being an Autism parent isn’t easy by any stretch of the imagination. It’s stressful and the amount of things to worry about at any given time is endless. On a physical and emotional level, it’s catastrophically exhausting.
I suppose it’s good that I can hold it together during my waking hours but those waking hours are only as good as my sleeping hours.
If it’s not one thing it’s another.