Read more about the article It’s already a rough morning
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It’s already a rough morning

I haven't even left yet and we're already off to a rough start. Gavin's having a difficult morning and I'm frustrated. I sometimes fail to maintain perspective and it's something I need to work on. Gavin has come so far and while he does pretty well in everyday life, especially in a relatively controlled environment, things quickly unravel when he gets emotional. He just has a hard time dealing with emotions. This morning he started to use the stove without asking. Yes, I know he's 22 years old, and does a good job, he needs to ask so that I'm aware he's using it and can intervene if need be. He can be forgetful and I need to keep tabs on things like using the stove or oven. There's only…

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March 26, 2022
Read more about the article I know so many of you can relate to this
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I know so many of you can relate to this

This morning I was reflecting on just how far the boys and I have come over the years. We're not without our challenges and that's okay. Last night, we had a family outing and it was so much fun. There was eight of us all together and everyone had a blast. I can remember when the idea of taking the kids anywhere was overwhelming for a multitude of reasons. There was always the financial aspect but also the emotional piece as well. I know so many of you can relate to worrying about whether or not an outing would lead to massive meltdowns later on. Basing your decisions on whether or not to do something, based solely on if you'll be able to deal with the potential fallout, sucks. Sitting…

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March 25, 2022
Read more about the article A quick update about my week
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A quick update about my week

It's been a good week so far. Elliott is on spring break and has been spending time with friends. He's doing well in regards to the change of schools, and has made a few friends already. He's even spending time outside of school with skme of them and that makes me feel good. Emmett is neck deep in state testing this week and seems to be coping with that stress pretty well. This morning I took him to Starbucks on the way to school. He went in all by himself, ordered his coffee, and some breakfast. I'm so proud of him. He did fantastic and I just wanted to do something special before state testing today. He went to school happy and ready to tackle the test. My day is…

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March 24, 2022
Read more about the article I swear to God it just never ends
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I swear to God it just never ends

Today is definitely not going as planned. I was supposed to take Emmett to school, hit the gym, and then bury myself in post production until it was time for another interview after lunch. Unfortunately, it didn't end up that way and instead, I'm at Aultman North waiting on xrays of Emmett's wrist. It just never ends. This is the 3rd time this year that he's needed xrays. He got hurt at recess again, a few days ago. He fell, hurting his right wrist and the pain is getting worse. I don't think it's broken but I do think he sprained it. I also know that I could be wrong. When he first hurt it, I told him that if he doesn't feel better in a couple days, we'll get…

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March 3, 2022
Read more about the article It’s been a rough week on multiple levels
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It’s been a rough week on multiple levels

So, it's been a challenging week for me on a number of levels. I'm emotionally drained from everything going on with my kids. We've also had quite a few appointments this week and I had a number of meetings crammed in between. Physical therapy for Emmett was the last appointment of the week. The kids are with their mom for the weekend and I'm sitting in bed writing this before I call it a night. I have zero plans for this weekend but that's okay. The down time will probably do me some good. I'm not going to work on the house, even though I should. I'm going to sleep in and probably spend all day in my pajamas. After the kids left, I spent the afternoon writing ad copies.…

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February 18, 2022
Read more about the article What have we come to when kids encourage other kids to kill themselves?
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What have we come to when kids encourage other kids to kill themselves?

I wish I could go into the details of just how absolutely overloaded I am right now or what I'm feeling. I'm trying to wind down but it's not working very well. I'm trying hard to find a balance here that allows me to share what I think is important without crossing a line. The problem is that I can't really see the line anymore and there a part of me that literally has zero shits left to give. At the moment, I'm dealing with a child who's being bullied and its escalated to social media. It's reached a level where he's fucking being told to kill himself. I'm so over kids being assholes and it's taking everything thing I have not to make some very bad decisions right now.…

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February 16, 2022
Read more about the article It doesn’t have to be perfect
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It doesn’t have to be perfect

I've totally been dragging today. I didn't really accomplish anything and I'm okay with that. We're going to call it a mental health day. Elliott's been having a rough time and I've been up with him the last couple of nights. I definitely have a nap calling my name after I get some work done. I'm waiting on more paint before finishing the living room and I'm looking at Saturday before I can get started again. Aside from the first floor being torn apart, it's given me extra time to get caught up at work. The podcast production side of things is getting busy, and is time consuming. I've learned so much since starting this new venture and I've been able to connect with so many amazing people. I've got…

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February 10, 2022
Read more about the article Working with myself rather than against myself
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Working with myself rather than against myself

I'm getting a little frustrated and overwhelmed with everything I have to do in the living room still. I've been at it pretty much nonstop for the past three days and I'm tired. I was able to get half of everything second coated before I started getting sloppy. I've decided to take a break, order some lunch (cause I'm also a little hangry) and work on something else for right now. I need to clear my head so I can get back at it ASAP. I owe it to the kids to disrupt their lives as little as possible, and right now, the entire first floor is unusable. Thankfully, the kids are at their moms until tomorrow, so I have some time. As far as my break is concerned, I'm…

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February 5, 2022