No one wanted to wake up this morning. At 8:30 am, everyone was still sleeping, and I had to get everyone up and moving because we had a 9:00 am appointment. Thankfully it didn't take too much prodding to get everyone's cooperation and we made it on time. I haven't been able to gauge how Lizze is doing today but things have definitely calmed down since last night. Personally, I'm feeling completely exhausted and I'm struggling to stay awake. Thankfully, after this appointment, we don't have anything until 5:00 pm this evening.

In my last entry, I talked about some rather unpleasant things and I want to take a minute to clarify something important.  The boys had a really good Christmas and so did we. It was really nice to spend time with my parents over the holiday. It was also nice to spend Christmas day with my in-laws.  I told my mother in law last night that I really appreciated being there because I took it for granted before the separation.  We've had a hiccup and the boys have been in rare form but it's been a good Christmas as far as I'm concerned. The absolute best gift I could have received was having my family whole and Santa delivered. 😁 

Today has not been a good day. The kids have been bouncing off the walls and Gavin has been incessantly talking all day long.  We went to my parents house for the afternoon and the boys had a great time. Unfortunately, that just sorta turbo charged their engines and has made for a really stressful evening.   Lizze had a pretty rough day to say the very least. I know she shared about how she's slipping backwards and that's largely my fault. There are still some bridges that need to be crossed with some of my siblings in regards to Lizze and I getting back together, before we can put this all behind us.  I'll be completely honest and say that it's an absolutely shitty situation to be in. I…

It's very quickly approaching 1:30 am and Elliott still isn't asleep. We've tried everything to help him but he's just too anxious. Melatonin hasn't helped and neither has endless back scratching. We had him take a relaxing bath and even tried essential oils in the diffuser. Lizze and I are so fucking tired. We obviously can't go to sleep until all the boys are asleep. It's our job to ensure that not a creature is stirring, not even an Elliott.  Perhaps some of you are going through the same thing...  This is for you... ☺ https://youtu.be/6-HjtRGIcog

I've got a larger Christmas entry coming soon, so I'll save most of the Christmas related stuff for that. 😀  For now I wanted to talk about how everyone seems to be doing as the holiday excited sort of envelops us in all its overstimulating glory. The short version of the story is that its been a very, very, very long day.  I picked the boys up from my parent's house around noon today. It was quite apparent that they were extremely anxious about Christmas. Frankly, any kid would have a higher level excitement as Christmas day approaches. With my kids however, regulation is something that doesn't come easy for them. They wear their excitement and anxiety on their sleeve for the whole world to experience with them.  😁  Gavin…