The kids had a hard time falling asleep last night and a difficult time getting up this morning. I swear it was like pulling teeth, just to get them out of bed. That being said, both Elliott and Emmett got to school, basically on time and with the intention of staying all day. I skipped walking today and did so for a couple of reasons. My left foot has been in a lot of pain for the last few months. Haven't really talked about it but it's a problem. It's plantars fasciitis, so while it's extremely painful, it's not serious. My sister has a PhD in physical therapy and has given me some things to do to finally make it go away. The other reason I skipped was because Gavin…

The boys had a rough day. They're really struggling in regards to their mom and end up taking it out on each other or me. I'm a grown-up and I'm here to deal with whatever they throw at me. I know whats going on and I don't take it personally. What really worries me is how they take out their anger, fear, heartache and pain on each other. There's not any physical altercations but they scream at each other and pick fights. It's more an issue with Elliott and Emmett but Gavin can get his digs in as well. I hate that they're fighting and I understand the mechanics but I'm making a serious effort to help them find more constructive outlets. We're making progress and the trip has brought…

My goal today is very simple, or at least it should be. By the end of today, I want to be completely unpacked from our trip. I know we've already been home a couple of days and it's still not done. That hasn't escaped me, but I don't want to dwell on the failings and instead focus on moving forward. Unpacking has inspired me to gut my dresser. I have clothes that no longer fit and while I know they will at some point again, I need to rid myself of them. Focusing on clothes that actually fit me is a better approach. Staring at clothes that don't fit me is depressing and unhelpful. It's not motivating me in any way, shape or form and is actually more discouraging. I'll…