I like to focus on what he CAN do and less on the things he can’t

For all Gavin's struggles, and they are many, he still does some pretty amazing things. While he'll never be independent, that doesn't mean he's not gaining some independence. ☺ Every single morning, Gavin begins his day with a bowl of oatmeal. He makes it all by himself and when he doesn't have chocolate chips to mix in, he simply cuts up an apple instead. He used a special tool we have that let's him safely cut up and remove the core of an apple. He doesn't use a knife, especially unsupervised. My whole point here is that it's important that I focus on things like this because it's so easy to get wrapped up in the things he can't do. The reality is, there are a great many things he…

0 Comments

A good start to New Years Eve

The boys will be home soon and our time alone will be coming to an end. Lizze is still sleeping, so I'm not sure how she's feeling today. It's New Years Eve and I don't think we have any plans. I did mentioned to the boys that we could have a family game night with some of the boardgames they received for Christmas. Emmett was the only one excited by that idea. I want to keep things as calm as possible tonight. The kids need to sleep and I don't want to be up all night. In fact, I don't remember the last time Lizze and I stayed up to watch the ball drop. The boys are hopefully going to be in a good place when they get home from…

0 Comments

Depression Confessions: 2 weeks into withdrawaling from #Paxil

Depression Confessions exists to help facilitate an open and honest about how depression impacts my life. Depression is different for everyone but there are still many common threads and we shouldn't be afraid to talk about it. I've been talking about my ongoing war with depression for many years now and it's a liberating experience. I encourage everyone to be open and honest with the people in your lives about how depression is impacting you. Silence and shame are two of depressions greatest allies. I'm writing today to update you on how my journey to withdrawal from antidepressants is going. I've been on Paxil and Wellbutrin for many, many years now but it was time to come off the meds and see where I'm at. This was a big decision…

1 Comment

Guess who’s got the night off

The boys are at their Grandparents house and that means we're childless for the night. Lizze is not feeling well and so she's sleeping. I was able to get some grocery shopping done and now I'm settling in to watch the Blade Runner movies. I've never seen them and I'm pretty sure Lizze wouldn't be interested, so this works out. Right now, it's just me, the dogs, some french bread pizza and streaming the Blade Runner movies via Chromecast to the Xbox. I'm feeling good and look forward to a quiet evening.

0 Comments

Withdrawaling from #Paxil is causing new problem

This whole withdrawaling from Paxil has been a really difficult journey thus far. The first week of tapering down felt like the worst case of the flu I've ever had. It lasted about a week but has since subsided. I thought I was in the clear until the next phase starts in a few weeks. Unfortunately, that has proven not to be true. While I'm not sick anymore, I'm dealing with really bad insomnia instead. To be completely honest, I'm not sure which is worse, feeling like shit or not sleeping. The insomnia began shortly after the nausea, body aches and headaches ended. I'm really struggling to get any sleep at night. I've tried over the counter sleep aides and Melatonin but nothing works. The problem is that my brain…

0 Comments

Family therapy just took a heartbreaking and unexpected turn

Family therapy has become a routine thing for my family. It's important that we stay ahead of anything that's going on and ensure that the kids are getting what they need. Parenting three kids with Autism and various other special needs, makes it damn near impossible to meet all their needs. Therapy helps us to make sure that we're at least meeting the most important ones. Anyway, last night was pretty routine, right up until the end of the session. I honestly don't even remember what triggered this but basically, out of nowhere, Gavin had a total breakdown. He starts sobbing and we finally get out of him what's causing him distress. Apparently, Gavin is having thoughts of punching people in the face. He isn't wanting to act on it,…

0 Comments

Review: Is the Shark Ion Robot Vacuum worth the money? (@sharkcleaning)

This review is sponsored by Shark. They sent me the new Shark Ion Robot Vacuum to review. The review contains my own opinions and thoughts as to the Shark Ion Robot Vacuum. I was not influenced by anyone or anything. Please help me share this review. Shortly before the recent holidays, I received a large box from Shark. If you're not familiar with the company, they make some pretty amazing vacuums and steam mops among other things. Inside this box was the brand new Shark Ion Robot Vacuum. Having never used one of these things before and only ever seeing one in the store, I had no idea what to expect. Below are my thoughts, personal experience and whether or not I would recommend this product to anyone. [foogallery id="68376"]…

1 Comment

We had a really close call

Yesterday afternoon, we realized that there was a problem with Gavin's Clozapine prescription. The problem was that we never received it. Last month, for whatever reason, the pharmacy didn't include the Clozapine in his predosed packets. Instead, they sent it out separately. Not a big deal.. Unfortunately, there was a change made to his prescription that we were never made aware of and that created a problem. For some reason, Gavin's prescription was reverted back to a seven day only. He'd been on a thirty day script for at least a year now. Not knowing this in advance created a problem because we needed to have his labs done every single Monday. This left us without a refill and working with the pharmacy to figure out what happened. I'm waiting…

0 Comments