Read more about the article 3 tell-tale signs I need help with my #Depression
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3 tell-tale signs I need help with my #Depression

I've been very open in regards to my ongoing war with depression. I feel that the only way we can de-stigmatize things like depression or any other mental health illness, is to speak openly, honestly and without shame. It's with the continued spirit of honesty, that I share with you my current struggles with depresion. I'm not going to go into my past history with depression in this post right now because honestly, this is hard enough as it is. You can however, read for yourself. See My War with Depression. In a nutshell, I'm not doing well. There are a few things that tend to happen when depression is kicking my ass. It's always been that way. As problematic and disruptive as these things can be, it's sorta like…

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June 12, 2018
Read more about the article I’m getting sick again
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I’m getting sick again

Today's been rough for me because I've been getting sick again. By sick, I simply mean very nauseated when I eat and unfortunately, I still have to eat. This has only been a problem since discontinuing Paxil in January. While today sucked, my days do seem to be getting better. I just wrote a post about how well I was doing because it'd been a week since I had gotten sick. Sure enough, a day or so later, I start getting sick again. I need to keep my mouth shut from now on. I'm hoping to sleep this off tonight and I'll just keep my intake on the lighter side of not eating much. It sorta sounds funny but that's actually what I'll have to do. I just have to…

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May 11, 2018
Read more about the article Major Update: The State of my Depression
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Major Update: The State of my Depression

It's been awhile since I opened up about my Depression and how I'm doing since discontinuing Paxil. It's been six months since I began the process of weaning off of Paxil. I never imagined it would as bad as it has been. No one ever warned me that Paxil.has such serious withdrawal symptoms for some people. You can read my awful journey in regards to coming off Paxil here. The last few months have been truly awful. I've been sick all the time. It felt like I always had the stomach flu because the nausea was almost unending. I couldn't eat, sleep or fully function. I'm a bit hesitant to say this out loud but it's been about a week or so since I've felt sick after eating. The nausea…

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May 9, 2018
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I’m suddenly not feeling well

All of a sudden, I've started not feeling well. It's not really anything new and it's probably still the Paxil related stuff because it still is impacting me. On one hand, it sucks to feel like this all the time. On the other hand, things do seem to be getting better, albeit slowly. I simply need some down time to regroup and work through the nausea. I also need to seriously pound some water and make sure I'm properly hydrated. At this point, I'm miserable but I'm so incredibly grateful to have made it this far. I'm working through this and truly hope to keep making progress until I come out the other end of this tunnel. I'm still not anti-medication and I still recognize how important these types of…

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April 29, 2018
Read more about the article Managing my #Depression: An Important Update
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Managing my #Depression: An Important Update

Depression has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. There have been times when I manage to maintain the upper hand and there are others when Depression makes me its bitch. This is why I refer to my struggles with Depression as a war and not a battle. (You can read more about my war on Depression by clicking here) Recently, I made some changes to the may I manage my Depression. More specifically, under medical supervision, I removed a medication I'd been on for about six years.(see my withdrawal from Paxil). I've spoken a great deal about the withdrawal process and for good reason. It's been absolutely horrible. I'm over five months in and I'm still feeling sick everyday from the withdrawal symptoms.…

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April 25, 2018
Read more about the article Getting kicked in the ass by withdrawal symptoms again
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Getting kicked in the ass by withdrawal symptoms again

The last day or so, I've been feeling better. Tomorrow makes two full weeks since I took my last dose of Paxil. It's been a mixed bag of absolute misery and somewhat survivable. Yesterday I was doing really well and thought I was finally at the tail end of this shit but I was wrong. I've been struggling with emotions today and feeling nauseated. I don't want to eat anything or even think about eating anything. I was supposed to see my doctor on Tuesday but that got bumped because Emmett needed to see his pediatrician. Like I said, I was feeling better and I thought I was past it. With any luck, this is just a minor setback...

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March 21, 2018
Read more about the article This is what withdrawing from #Paxil is doing to me
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This is what withdrawing from #Paxil is doing to me

I wanted to touch base and let you guys know where I've been. Since last Thursday, I've been really, really struggling both physically and emotionally. I was doing pretty good, or so I thought. For most of the last 90 days or so, I was going okay. I would feel changes each time my dose was reduced but for the most part, I adjusted well. When I took my final dose last Thursday, I thought I was going to be free. Instead, I find myself struggling more than I ever have before. To be clear, I'm not struggling with Depression, the Fisher Wallace Stimulator I'm using is helping out a great deal on that end. The problem I'm having now is how my body is reacting to no longer having…

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March 15, 2018
Read more about the article IMPORTANT UPDATE: My nightmarish withdrawal from #Paxil has taken an unexpected turn
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IMPORTANT UPDATE: My nightmarish withdrawal from #Paxil has taken an unexpected turn

Yesterday, I told you that Gavin's appointment with Dr. Reynolds went fine. What I didn't tell you was that I had a chance to talk to him about my current struggles with coming off of Paxil. I also wanted to update you all as well because I think it's been a little while since a more detailed update has been written. I took my last dose of Paxil last Thursday. I was taking 40 mg/day and over the last three months, I've slowly weaned off the Paxil, under medical supervision. This has been a nightmare at times and survivable at others. The middle part of this journey wasn't too bad because was I beginning to use the Fisher Wallace Stimulator and that has helped to take the edge off by…

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March 13, 2018