It's been a crazy long day. The kids have been driving me absolutely bonkers and I'm so grateful to at least have hope that they will be returning to school in the morning. I'm still really worried about Elliott but his pediatrician says he's okay and it sounds much worse than it actually is. I absolutely love my kids but I need a break. I haven't been able to walk in well over a week and I haven't been able to walk regularly in months. It's taking its toll on me. Anyway, everyone is sleeping and I've been up fighting with the audio for Friday's podcast. I'm frustrated because I want to do better audio but I'm limited by my environment and equipment. I'm just overwhelmed with life in general…

It's like a fucking roller-coaster because my kids are really sick, then they seem to feel a little better and then go back to being sick again. I guess it's kinda the nature of respiratory stuff but the ups and downs are rough because it's difficult to know what to do. As of writing, both Elliott and Emmett will be home again, despite serious protest from Elliott. I'm not sure what's up with that but I think it has to do with avoiding going to the doctors. If he's back at school, he doesn't need to go to the doctor. That's his logic but it doesn't work that way because this isn't a democracy. I'm responsible for their wellbeing and if I feel they need to be seen, they will…

It took a bit to get the boys to sleep last night, especially Elliott. He was coughing nonstop and it sounded awful. He's on meds for the cough, breathing humidified air (with essential oils) and using his emergency inhaler very few hours. It was well into the early hours of the morning before he finally was able to sleep. Emmett seemed to fall asleep a bit more easily but was up super early. Both the boys are upset that they are missing school. Emmett isn't fighting me but Elliott is really upset and not letting it go. There's zero chance they can go to school and nothing he can say to me is going to change that. Both are basically fever free this morning but still over the threshold for…