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A huge thank you and a birthday confession

Today has been a total roller coaster ride. I turned 42 years old today and it was a rough birthday for a million reasons. The last few days have been particularly difficult for me. The other night I had a very vivid dream. It was basically that my family was whole and that my marriage …

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Confessions: I’m worn out and overwhelmed

Today has me stressing out quite a bit. As lockdown drags on and on, it’s getting harder and harder to make ends meet. This month has been absolutely horrible in that area and I’m really worried about what July is going to look like. Being a single Dad and full time caregiver to 3 Autistic kids, …

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I tell people I’m okay but I’m really not

Twice today, I’ve been called out for not being honest about how I’m doing. My amazing Mother was the first one, and a few hours later, my therapist became the second. I wanted to talk about this briefly and ask you to take a second, do a self-inventory and see if maybe this applies to …

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I’ve been a single Dad to my 3 #Autistic kids for exactly 3 months now and here’s the truth

It’s been three months since I became a single Dad again and I’m still trying to find my footing. It’s not easy to grieve, while being a full time Dad and caregiver to three amazing kids with special needs. This time around, I think I’m adjusting a bit quicker than I did before. Adjusting doesn’t …

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It f*cking hurts to know that I’m not enough

We’ve had a busy day and while it’s been mostly positive, there are some things that have my stress and anxiety through the roof. Okay. So the kids had a birthday party this afternoon and it was really nice. Emmett’s friend is a sweet kid and his family is pretty amazing as well. It was …

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I lost my cool tonight

For the first time in a long time, I’m actually feeling good-ish about myself. Selfcare is a priority again, even if it’s not perfect, I’m doing my best to work with what I got. Today was a pretty decent day. The kids drove me crazy, but that’s par for the course. ☺ Everything actually went …

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I feel like such an asshole tonight

I’ve got a great deal weighing on me and it all came to a head tonight. I feel like shit right now because I lost my cool with Elliott tonight. Honestly, it was stupid and if I was a better person, I wouldn’t have reacted the way I did. I had asked Elliott a question …

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I’m NOT okay

The truth is, I’m NOT okay. I’m not okay and I’m going to be very honest about why that is.