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Gavin’s developed a bad habit and I can’t seem to break him of it

Gavin is such a good kid and he's come such a long way over the last year. Lately however, I've been seeing quite a few steps backwards and it's got me a little bit worried. It's really kinda bizarre because as he's slipping, as I have affectionately dubbed it, some old behavioral issues are resurfacing once again. I fear before too long, I'm going to be seeing full fledged meltdowns/tantrums again but that's for another post at another time. For the last few weeks, I've been trying to get Gavin to stop pointing with his middle finger. If you didn't know him, he would honestly appear to be telling you silently, to fuck off. That's not what he's doing but I can think of a million situations this could get him…

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August 17, 2015

The Autism Dad Origin Story

UPDATE: Our journey has changed once again and you can read about that here. As I'm slowly rebuilding my readership, traffic and reach on this new blogging journey, I thought it would be helpful to share why write about my life. It's new information for some and a reminder for others. If you've been a reader since Lost and Tired, there have been some changes, but my writing should still be largely recognizable. Part of me hated to walk away from what I'd built with Lost and Tired over the past 6 years, but part of me feels a sense of relief and excitement. Lost and Tired was the real life story of two parents raising three special needs kids. It was raw, gritty but beautiful and inspiring at the…

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August 16, 2015

My thoughts

What I’m looking forward to the most as my kids go back to school

With my kids returning to school on September 1st, there are a few things that I'm looking forward to. Honestly, I'll miss them but to say that I desperately need a break would be a gross understatement. This has been my very first summer as a full time single parent and it's been a lot of things but easy hasn't been one of them. I've struggled in many areas but one of the toughest has been my battle with depression. This has been an on again off again battle since I was a teenager but I was doing pretty well. Unfortunately, divorce can put people into a tailspin and I'm no exception. Nothing went as I had planned this summer and we basically just survived. Truth be told, that in-and-of-itself is…

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August 16, 2015

Emmett John / My thoughts / PFAPA

It’s tough to have your child scream at you :(

It's been a really long and emotional day. This flare that Emmett's enduring right now is really kicking his butt. He's started biting his upper and lower lips today and so now he's got these red sores that almost look like chapped lips but I'm not sure that's what they are. Anyway, today has been spent trying to make him comfortable.... Advil and numbing cream on his lips and Oragel for the sores in his mouth. Thankfully, it looks like he only has one so far but honestly, one is enough. I did get him to eat a little bit of Mac and Cheese but he really hasn't been hungry today. It should go without saying that he's been rather grumpy and by grumpy, I mean he screamed at…

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August 16, 2015

My thoughts / Today's Victory

I’m so grateful my kids let me rest this afternoon

I'm so grateful to the boys for letting me nap a little bit this afternoon. I haven't been feeling well since I got up this morning. I don't know if it's something I ate or if it's a stomach bug but I've been really nauseous and I can't get rid of this headache. For the most part, the kids have been great. Emmett's entered into another fever flare and so he's hardly eaten anything today because his mouth hurts too bad. He's really sporting a short fuse at this point but I certainly can't blame him. He's got to be absolutely miserable. I'll write more about the flares in another post later on but the whole point is that all things considered, the boys have done really well today. I'm…

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August 14, 2015

Confessions / My thoughts

I’m really close to losing our house

I suppose the title says it all. I'm pretty close to losing our house and the reason I'm sharing this is because it had an impact on a really tough decision I made today.. Anyone that truly knows me knows that I take my family very seriously. It's my responsibility to provide for them and no one else's. My goal is to be as physically and financially independent as humanly possible. That's always been my goal. I was able to meet that goal for long time, until I got hurt and things slowly unraveled from there but that's really kind of irrelevant at this point. Once upon a time, I would have been more upfront about this because I believe that I'm far from the only special needs family…

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August 14, 2015

My thoughts

I’m fighting a stomach bug today

Emmett was up until almost 2 am and both Elliott and Emmett were awake by 5 am. I'm dying right now because I'm exhausted and fighting off a stomach bug that has me trying not to puke. It's going to be a really long day. 😒

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August 14, 2015

My thoughts

The boys and I had a little mission today

My parents are taking care of a relative who's having some health issues today and asked if the boys and I would stop by and take care of the dog. My cousin is living there now but was going to be at work. After lunch, the boys and I went to go let Bailey outside and give him something to eat. I never liked Bailey for some reason but since their other dog died a couple of years ago, he's really grown on me. Bailey's getting old and doesn't like to be alone, even for a little while so we decided to take him for a walk before we left. He had fun and so did the boys. I'm trying to instill a sense of responsibility in my kids. Helping…

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August 13, 2015