Sometimes I struggle with all the responsibilities associated with being an Autism and Special Needs parent. Frankly, I struggle with my wife's chronic health issues, as well. It's not easy being a full-time caregiver to four people while trying to work from home and battling my own demons. It's not easy trying to manage everyone's life and not lose myself in the mix. I've been struggling a great deal lately, and there are a number of reasons for that. I often find myself being crushed by all I'm trying to maintain. I can get frustrated because things are always so hard. While we had a pretty good day today, especially by our standards, there were still some times that I was incredibly frustrated. Sometimes I just need things to work.…

I feel pretty positive about today. Lizze isn't feeling good at all, but we ran a few errands and had a quick impromptu lunch before heading to get the kids. The boys have been at a birthday party for most of the afternoon, and they're having a great time. I'm chilling in the car, waiting for the boys to come out. I met the parents of Elliott's friend, and they are sooooo nice. It turns out; this kid lives about a mile and a half away. That's pretty fricking close, and we need to get them together more often. As I mentioned previously, Emmett and Gavin were both invited too, and they're having a great time as well. I was concerned about Gavin, but it sounds like he's doing well.…

My wife and I don't get that many breaks. That said, we do get more than many others out there, and we're grateful for what we get. The boys left about 2 PM today. After they left, the bulk of my day was spent sleeping. I crashed for almost six hours. I'm so worn out, and the stress of everything is getting to me. As soon as the kids left, I didn't have to be awake anymore. There were a million things I should have been doing, but my body just needed to shut down. It's so hard to get people to understand how stressful being an Autism parent is. I'm tired. I'm overwhelmed, and at this moment in time, I feel like things are never going to get better.…

Lizze and I have a decent break ahead of us today. All three of the kids are going to their grandparents for the night. Tomorrow, they are going to a birthday party for one of Elliott's classmates. Even Gavin is invited and that's pretty awesome. 😊 This party is Nerf themed and they're going to have a Nerf war, as well as go swimming. The boys have spent a good deal of time planning which Nerf guns to bring to their upcoming battle. This is what they decided on. I'm pretty excited that they get to have this experience and I'm also excited to have some time off. Depending on how Lizze is feeling, maybe we'll go do some normal couple things like dinner and a movie. If she's not…